Warning: this chapter contains vomiting. Please be caution when reading this chapter.
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The day seemed to drag on and on and on. The teachers' voices became a dull him with every class that passed. History, Mathematics, Literature, Biology, ect. I took the necessary notes, but what they were saying sounded so boring.
I was thankful that it was Thursday, but that also made everything worse. One because it's Thursday not Friday and two, Friday means that I'll have to spend more time at home with him.
My nausea got worse the closer the end of the day got. I couldn't even eat lunch, then again not everyone is immune to that radioactive crap.
"Eat something." Oswald said as he brought a box of pizza to the table
"Not hungry." I said the same excuse this morning
"You haven't eaten since this morning, Brenda. You need something to keep you going." Oswald told me
He leaned forward and pressed the back of his hand to my forehead as well as my neck.
"I'm not sick." I said moving his hand
"I wanted to make sure. You're pale-er then normal." He said frowning
Felix handed me his slice, "Here, Brenda. You need to eat."
I couldn't hold back anymore. I ran out of the cafeteria with a hand over my mouth, I located the nearest bathroom and ran inside.
Here's a fun fact about my school, no one cares about which restroom you use as long as you're not having sex in there. I've seen plenty of boys in the girl's restroom and vice versa.
The nearest for me just so happens to be the men's restroom. I push open the nearest stall and managed to make it. My stomach churned and lurched. My mouth was instantly filled with the disgusting taste of old food, spit, and stomach acid.
I couldn't breathe as my stomach emptied itself. My eyes watered and I just wanted to the entire experience to end. I coughed and spat trying to get through taste out of my mouth.
"Brenda?" It was Mickey out if everyone that could've followed me, it was the one person that I didn't want.
I hate it when he sees the weak side of me. And it hurts more when he calls me that stupid awful name!
"DON'T CALL ME THAT!"
"What?"
Shit... I said that out loud didn't I. Fuck how do I get out of this? That's the thing, I don't.
I stand up flushing the toilet and push past him to wash my mouth out.
"Brenda, talk to me." he pleads
"There's nothing to talk about alright. I was feeling sick since this morning, I feel a bit better alright." I sniffed a bit
"Something is clearly bothering you. What's wrong?" He asks me placing a hand on my shoulder
Stop it...
"I'm fine. If something happens, I'll let you know." I tell him knowing damn well that I'm lying to him, to the guy I think of as my own brother
"You've changed recently. You've been hiding your body more. You barely talk and joke around. Everyone is worried about you..." He pauses
Don't you dare say it. Please don't say it...
"I'm worried about you." He finishes
DAMNIT MICKEY!
"I'll tell you after school." I sighed
"You better. Now let's head back." He grabs my hand and leads back into the cafeteria
I sat down and the table starts to bombard me with questions. It was causing a massive sensory overload. Felix notices and gets everyone to stop, thank god.
"I'm fine. I was feeling sick this morning. I'm fine." I tell them giving them a fake smile
"Are you sure?" Donald asked me
"Yeah."
"Are you feeling well enough to finally eat something?" Oswald asks me looking at me as if he was going to kill me if I said no
"Maybe." Was my answer
He passes me a slice, "Eat what you can."
I look down at the pizza slice and nearly vomit again. I pick it up and took a bite. It took all of my willpower to get the small bite down without choking on practically nothing. I sat the slice down just as the bell rings.
Saved by the bell! I run out of the cafeteria, literally and run to my next class.
I know that they have questions. Most I don't have answers to.
Why am I like this?!
The day dragged on and on. Once again the teachers' voices become white noise. The notes that I'm taking are starting to look like chicken scratch. Nothing is making sense anymore.
What's wrong with me?!
The final bell rang and I'm released from my eight hour long prison sentence that I must serve for twelve long years, or even longer if I choose to attend college.
I slowly walk to the student parking lot and I see Oswald and Felix talking by the car.
"Where's Mickey?" I ask the duo
"Talking to his stupid girlfriend." Oswald says rolling his eyes
"And yet your dating Felix." I remind him
"Okay, but my sweet Felix isn't a piece of shit. She has the personality of a fucking high maintenance poodle. The bitch is also homophobic." Oswald growls
"Do you have proof that she's homophobic?" I asked them
"Mickey introduced me to her when he brought her home once. I said hello and she was like do you have a girlfriend. I said no, which is true. She was like I have a friend that I could hook you up with. I said you didn't let me finish. I don't have a girlfriend, I have a boyfriend. She looked disgusted and went on a long ass rant about how being gay is wrong." Oswald explained
"How do you feel about her, Felix?" I asked him
"I don't like her. If she was less... Mean. Then I would like her more." he says
"Sorry I'm late!" Mickey runs up to us
"You done kissing her uptight ass?" Oswald said rolling his eyes
"I talked to her about that. She apologized to you." Mickey reminded him
Oswald sat in the backseat with Felix leaving me with the front seat. I could also sit in the back, but those two need time together.
"Ready to talk?" Mickey asked me
"At your place? Yeah I would love to talk there." I said looking out the window
Mickey sighed and started to drive towards his house. My gut twists with anxiety. Hopefully I can answer their questions.
What's wrong with me? Why am I like this?
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FanfictionAll of my life I've been known as Brenda. That's not my name. Everyone calls me a girl. I'm not a girl! I want to change, I want to be myself. I want to be able to look in a mirror and say yes, this is me. This is who I'm meant to be. I know it's go...
