why can't it be me

le jour où j'ai commencé à t'aimer

I was curious why she suddenly wanted me to play and started to chat me so I asked my sister

Kina
Sis why did ika started to chat me randomly and asked to play?what did you do?

Anne
You don't trust your sister do you?but I'm being for real I actually don't know why but from what I heard from my friend is ika and her girlfriend broke up due to some issue

Kinna
You sure? Then can I ask a favor??please???

Anne
What favor??

As she raised her eyebrow at me looking like she's judging whole existence

Kinna
Can you maybe give me her socials???or number ??

Anne
I'll do it in one condition

Kinna
Whatever what condition

Anne
set me up with your classmate Joshua so what do we have a deal?

Kinna ,
Deal!

We laugh as we continue our little "deal"

The deal that woul I would shatter my heart into tiny little pieces

Me and ika started talking and opening  up about our life it like I could talk enything about her even if it was academic life,the funniest things we ever experienced or the deepest little secrets we have

and day by day I could feel  my feelings grew bigger and bigger

We started saying I love you ,I miss you ,good morning,good night ,eat well,sleep well

Not knowing I'll be the the only one missing these times these sweet words that could only last a while how could life be so cruel
 
Every second,minute,hour,day,month talking to her I knew I was in love with the way she talked the way her hair falls the way her dark brown eyes would hit the sun everything about her the way she existed I love her more than she knew it

We started to call each other names nicknames! I loved every second of it

But deep down I knew 
That I shouldn't have been doing this without a label but I was stubborn

I loved her and that's it I could take the    risk for her

Only her

She asked me to match profile pictures!profile picture !I felt butterflies in my stomach hearing it I guess I really love her

But does she love me back?

Of course she does she said so herself why would I doubt her it's her the one i would love for ever

Ps
I'm sorry (again)for spelling mistakes,grammar ect