why can't it be me

le jour où mon monde s'est arrêté

I went to school ignoring the thoughts I was thinking I just couldn't focus on enything tija tapped my shoulders

Tija
Hey are you okay you seem out of focus

Kinna

Not really it's just I'm thinking of things right now

Tija
You don't have to keep all of your problems to your self you know that right

Kinna
It's just ika is acting strange her chats are becoming cold

Tija
Did you fight?

Kinna
No? Not that I know of

Tija
I'm warning you now step out of this so called "relationship" of yours this kind of love is dangerous and the way you call your each other love is concerning love without a label is hard

Kinna
She isn't like that

I regret not listening to obvious warnings

School was done and I rushed home
I was shocked to see my sister at home

Kinna
Why are you here aren't you supposed to be at school?you cutting classes now huh

Anne
No not like that our class got suspended

Kinna
Yeah right 

I was about to pen my phone when I saw a notification from ika
My heart skipped skipped beat I felt something was wrong

I opened the chat and my whole world stopped

Ika
I've been trying to find the right words to say this, but there's no easy way to do it. The truth is, I don't feel the same way about us anymore. I've tried to ignore it, but the feelings just aren't there. It's like something inside me has shut off, and I can't force myself to love you the way you deserve. I wish I could pinpoint exactly when it happened, but all I know is that I've fallen out of love. I know this must be devastating to hear, and I hate myself for causing you this pain. But it's better to be honest now than to lead you on any longer. I hope someday you'll understand, and I hope you find someone who can give you the love you deserve

My chest got tighter and tighter as I read the chat

Kinna
But what about everything you said the way you will wait for me forever?was it all true please tell me it was true I my heart can bear you saying no

Ika
Yes it was all real all I said was all real I loved you I'm sorry for ll the broken promises I said but nothing last forever right I loved you and that's all it matters

Kinna
I'm willing to wait for you until your ready to love again

Ika
Don't waste your time waiting for me I can't promise you somethings I know I won't be able to fulfill, I don't want o add this to the other droken promises i made I loved you and thats all

I was speechless I don't know what to think everything went black