You look so tired, unhappy [{-•DISCONTINUED•-}]

Talking

TW: self-harm ⚠️ at beginning and end so you can skip if needed

It couldn't have been any later than 12 o'clock when Lucy walks into the break room. Ana's head shoots up and sees Lucy and smiles at her, not wanting her to worry or ask questions. Lucy sits next to her on the couch to see what's wrong with her sister. "So why was it you wanted to leave school, you only got to break.. I'm worried for you," Ana turns and looks Lucy in the eyes "sorry, the news got out and people kept asking, looking at me weird and my friends just ignored me and walked away," Lucy feels terrible for her sister, she didn't do anything.

"You'll be okay I know you will, is there anything else going on?" Ana immediately panics and blurts out a quick unconvincing "nope!" She really emphasises the 'P'. "Are you sure? You can tell me anything you know that right?" Ana just snaps. She starts going off at Lucy and can't stop. "You don't know what it's like in that shit hole! There's fake ass bitches staring at you or judging you anywhere you walk! If there WAS something wrong with me I'd sure tell you but nope I'm all fine! You just don't understand what it's like"

Lucy is in shock, she doesn't know what has just happened. "Ana please, I do know what it's like, I was in high school too..." Lucy says a tad quieter and calmer, hoping Ana will relax. "Okay im sorry but I'm fine!" Lucy doesn't know whether to believe Ana or not. "Why don't we go shopping tomorrow, just you and I?" Ana shrugs he shoulders then nods.

Ana doesn't know what to say to Lucy. She doesn't know if it would be easier just to admit defeat and open up to Lucy but she doesn't want to feel vulnerable.

"I gotta go out on patrol now. Do you want me to take you home or stay here?" Lucy asks and Ana thinks about the question for a minute, "take me home please?"

"Let's go then," Lucy replies and the two sisters walk over to Lucy and Tim's shop, where Tim is already in the drivers seat. Ana sits in the middle seat at the back and buckles up. Tim just stares at Lucy with confusion, Lucy exoakis  they have to drop Ana off at the apartment first then they can go out on patrol again.

It's a quick 15 minute drive from the station to Lucy's apartment, she walks Ana up making sure she gets in safely. "Will you be okay in here yourself? I'll be another 4 or 5 hours," Lucy states to Ana. "Yeah ill be fine, I'll just have a nap or something to pass the time.." Ana doesn't actually think she'll be okay herself but she doesn't need Lucy worrying or pitying her. Lucy nods and says bye then locks the front door leaving Ana home alone with endless possibilities of what to do.

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Ana goes straight to Lucy's room, knowing she had bought a pack of razors the other day. She goes to find them in her room. After a few minutes of raiding Lucy's room, Ana find the razor packet, she takes 1 of the 3 and uses tweezers to get out the blades, she puts everything back and takes the 4 little blades to the bathroom with her. Ana sits on the bathroom floor, sobbing. She doesn't know how it started or how her life got so messed up but she knew once she started she wouldn't be stopping anytime soon.

Even though Ana is home alone, she still locks the bathroom door, just in case. She is now leaning against the door clenching the metal in her hand. She takes 1 and putd the rest on the floor next to her. With the one in her right hand, she drags it across her wrist multiple time, used to the sensation now she can't feel it, so she goes deeper. She cuts, and cuts, and cuts a few deeper ones, but then they don't stop bleeding. Ana is panicking, she scavengers for the first aid kit she knows has bandages in it. She cannot find it anywhere. Lucy must've took it to work today. Great, Ana resorts to using a small, damp cloth and is holding pressure just to calm the bleeding. After that she sits the cloth on the unit in the bathroom and decides to get that later. Ana exits the bathroom completely forgetting about the blades on the floor.

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A/N: idk about this chapter bc it's short ngl but I promise I'll get to the dramatic stuff soon🙏