Severus Snape One Shots

Porch Swing Angel

A/N: Ok, I know I said I at least wanted 5 completed before I posted anything, BUT, I'm at a sort of "block" of some kind, not with a storyline but with the dialogue... so... yea. Here's one I'm happy with and that's complete.

1: Severus moved from his childhood home in Spinner's End, but still uses it as a 'deploy' or a meeting spot (with any Death Eaters) so no one has his new address, Y/n and Severus live a few houses from each other.
2: It's near the end summer break (faculty and staff have to return early)
3: POV switch to (2nd).
Word Count: 5.3K

Sev's POV (ish).

I take the chance and kiss you. One of my hands cupping your cheek, the other on your waist, pulling you closer to me.

My heart is soaring. My brain and body are being pumped with oxytocin, serotonin and dopamine. The kiss is saying everything I've ever wanted to say since we were 13. It's saying more than 'I love you', because 'I love you' is an understatement.

You're my porch swing angel, my darling, my best friend, my love, my world, my light in the darkness, my hope in the hopeless... you're my always.

I've wanted to tell you how I've felt for as long as I can remember, but I was too much of a coward to tell you.

You've always had and still get my heartstrings tangled. Your eyes always bring me to my knees every damn time I look into them. Whenever your near, I have a stomach full of butterflies and jitters.

Your smile is like a peaceful, quiet Sunday; warm, comforting, gentle, bright and inviting.

You're the only thing I want and need in this world...

You're the only one that has my façade crumbling just at the mere thought of you.

My thoughts pretty much consisted of;

Should I tell her how I feel?.

No! I don't want to scare her away. We've been friends, no.. BEST FRIENDS, since we were eight, and I don't want to change that. I'd rather have her and call her mine as a friend, than not have her at all.

Tell her, you dunderhead.

What if she doesn't feel the same? I can't. I don't want to jeopardize our friendship in case my love is unrequited.

What if she does?

Every time I have had the courage to tell you, I lost it just as fast as it came.

I got tired of pushing and keeping my feelings at bay for so fucking long.

My thoughts were everywhere, but now...

I'm finally kissing my porch swing angel, conveying everything I have felt and still feel for you. Decades of friendship and hidden love.

Knock knock knock.

I was awakened by the knocking. I wipe away the disappointment, the realization that it was a dream.

Of course it was a dream. I can deceive the darkest wizard of our time, yet I'm too cowardly and scared to tell you how I feel.

I really do want to tell you how I feel, but, I don't want to scare you away and possibly change our relationship. We've been friends for a really long time.

I haven't slept properly in a long while, none of it is your fault though. Reason one, the Dark Lord is growing more powerful each day, and has been summoning myself as well as other Death Eaters at random times. The Dark Lord knows of you, but he doesn't know exactly what you mean to me. He doesn't know my loyalty lies with you and not him. He doesn't know that I'm betraying him, because if he did, I'd be dead.