The Guy I Like isn't actually a guy?(GL)

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Jaxie

7pm

Nasa bar parin kami at nakikijamming sa mga taong nandodoon dahil minsan ay inaaya talaga kami makipagsayawan.

"Vergeo, I heard na you know how to sing and play a guitar? Perform ka naman." hirit sakin ni Pinuno.

"Ih! Ayoko, saka nandito tayo para uminom diba? Bar to oh!"

"Ay hindi, andito tayo para magsaya at hindi uminom ng uminom ante." Sige ipilit mo. "Guys we need Vergeo to perform, right!?" Tanong nito sa madlang pepol.

"Huy! Ginagawa mo pinuno!?" Pigil at pabulong kong sabi sakaniya.

"Perform na yan! Perform, Perform!" Kelan pa kami naging close ng mga tao sa bar na to at parang hindi ata sila nagdidis-agree sa idea ni Pinuno? Aba.

"Oo na sige na, sa kadami dami niyong nagrerequest jusme sinong aayaw dito." Give up is the key nalang talaga para manahimik na sila.

Naglakad na ako patungo sa stage para magperform, buti at dala ko yung acoustic guitar ko, akala ko din kasi ay sa normal na kainan lang din kami magcelebrate or sa bahay ni pinuno.

I set up my acoustic guitar at umupo na so I can start. Medyo binubwelo-bwelo ko pa yung tune ng acoustic guitar para okay sa song.

Now playing ; 8Letters by Why Don't We

You know me the best
You know my worst
See me hurt
But you don't judge
That right there is the scariest feeling.

I close my eyes to feel the lyrics but at the same time feeling the tunes of my guitar.

Opening and closing up again
I've been hurt, so I don't trust
Now here we are, staring at the ceiling

I also did stare at the ceiling while I was singing that part.

I've said those words before,
but it was a lie
And you deserve to hear them a thousand times

While I was singing that part, I saw a familiar figurine entering this place but I couldn't careless and continued to strum and sing until the next lines...

I saw her near me, she's in front of me with her friends.

Our eyes met....

If all it is is eight letters
Why is it so hard to say?
If all it is is eight letters

I'm singing this lines while our eyes is focused to each other like I'm conveying my message to her...

Why am I in my own way?
Why do I pull you close?
And then ask you for space
If all it is is eight letters
Why is it so hard to say?

She looked away causing our eye contact break in silence because her friends called her.

Isn't it amazing how almost every line on our hands align?
When your hand's in mine
It's like I'm whole again, isn't that a sign?
I should speak my mind

This is what I'm always feeling and thinking about whenever I'm around Yvi... Should I really speak my mind? Would she accept me as a girl? I know she likes my other persona which is me dressed up as a guy.. but.. if I introduce myself and confess as a girl, would I stand a chance??

When I close my eyes
It's you there in my mind
When I close my eyes

I closed my eyes as I sing those lines... I'm scared...

Only now have I noticed that the girl infront of me is the girl I like....

I look at her and our eyes met again.... My eyes softened as I saw her smiling at me.

Oh Yvi.... How I wish that you would like me even though I'm a girl..

After my performance, I felt something coming out of my eyes..... Right..

I quickly came down the stage and ran to the bathroom to calm myself down.

Nang nasa cr na ako, una kong ginawa ay maghilamos, after that, ang ginawa ko nalang ay tignan ang sarili.

"Look at you, Ion... You're such a mess."

Hay.. balik na nga ako.

Nang pabalik na nga ako, hindi ko alintanang makakasalubong ko sa daanan si Yvi.

"Hey um... Are you okay?" At dahil nga, kanina niya pa ako nakitang kumanta sa stage, di na siya nag atubiling lumapit saakin. Nakakahiya, nakita niya ako sa ganitong sitwasyon.

"Uh... Yes, I-I'm good..I guess.." pabulong kong sinabi yung last.

"I know you're not." Bat ka pa nagtanong kung alam mo naman palang hindi?? Ay joke lang.

"You're not a good liar... Jaxie. Kung sa tingin mo, e mapapaniwala mo ko pwes.. hindi yun umobra. Alam ko kapag nag sisinungaling ka, sa ilang beses na nating magkakilala.. alam ko na kapag nauutal ka, nagsisinungaling ka." Ani nito. Wala naman akong masabi at napatingin nalang sakaniya.

Hindi kami nag imik-an ng ilang minuto at nakipagtitigan kami sa isa't isa. Ni isa samin ay walang kumurap.

Naramdaman ko nang maluluha na ako kaya ako na ang bumitaw sa titigan namin.

"U-um.. sorry" bigla kong sabi. Nakita ko naman sa peripheral vision ko ang reaction niya at maging ako ay nagulat sa sinabi ko. Bakit nga ba ako humihingi ng tawad?

"Okay, I won't bother you anymore with the questions. If you're not feeling well, I can take you home naman" umiling naman ako sakaniya.

"Di na bale, Yvi. Kasama ko pa mga teammates ko at selebrasyon namin ito ngayon, ayoko namang umuwi nalang basta basta." Ngumiti nalang ako habang sinasabi ko iyon dahil ayokong makahalata siyang kung ano sa'akin. 'Di ko kakayanin na magalala siya sakin, I'd rather keep this to myself.

"Okay, as you said naman. Take care of yourself nalang ha? I'll be in the other table." Why is she so nice? How are you so nice to me? I don't deserve your kindness if I'm lying about my other half..

Pero despite all those complaining inside my head, I still kept my composure and calmly said "okay...." and I smiled. I don't know why I always smile pero ang alam ko lang, sakaniya lang ako nakakasmile ng ganto.

Nakalayo na kami sa isa't isa, we're now in our own businesses. Dala-dala ko parin yung worries ko hanggang sa pag upo ko sa kung nasaan ang table namin.

Eto kasing sila Kapitan e! Nanahimik yung tao tapos pinakanta ako, edi nagemote pa ako? Sila kap talaga may pakana e, bahala sila jan!

"Hoy! Wag ka ngang nambibintang jan! Malay ko bang mageemote ka? Pinapakanta ka lang e!" Ha pano nila narinig yun?? Nababasa ba nila utak ko?? Aba!

"Amp*ta, anong nababasa ang utak? Saka oo naririnig ka namin, kung makasalita ka kasi kala mo talaga nasa isip mo lang sinasabi e, literal na sinasabi talaga like salitang tunog te! Tse!" Oops, I said it out loud hehe.

The night ended smoothly naman, nakauwi na ako pero papansin talaga tong puso ko e, kanina pa throb ng throb, pag ako umiyak dito.

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It's been what?? 20minutes since I said that, eto ako ngayon umiiyak sa gilid ng kwarto ko.

Papansin talaga kahit kelan, di naman ako iyakin ah!

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A/N: OmO it's been 8months since I last updated, grabe TvT sorry at naging busy si ante niyo! Pano ba naman, ABM here ABM that, nireregret ko na nga na eto kinuha ko e pero anong magagawa ko? Lahat naman ng strand course e mahirap. Bahala kayo jan, wait ulit kayo ng 1 month HAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHA