The Good War-JJ fanfic

chapter 9

Well our plan to get a finders fee backfired tremendously.

You would think a sunken boat would be more important than some lady frantically talking about her dog.

The guys were total dicks too.

I was about to start swinging but then John dragged me out and reminded me that i can't be getting arrested.

again.

Pope started the engine while John B pulled the anchor up. We had all decided to check out the motel. I was currently laid out on the front of the boat. Almost completely asleep when Kie sat down next to me. I could tell she wanted to ask me something, but instead she just looked out towards the water.

"are you okay?" Kie asks me

no response

I don't know what to say. my whole life I have had to deal with everything on my own. I haven't had anyone by my side.

Now I have these guys.

As much as I want to finally just talk about it and feel free, I know that isn't a good idea. I can't drag them into my shit. It's only gonna hurt them in the end. Maybe some day i'll talk about it. Not today though.

"Cal? Callie? Hello?" I hear kie say

"hmm? oh yea i'm great!" I reply enthusiastically

"Are you sure? You just seem so different today. I'm worried." she tells me sincerely. wait is she fucking with me? no she can't be. This is Kie. Only the boys would do that. She looks concerned. Oh no no no. Am I really that bad a hiding this. I don't want her pity. I love kie but i don't need a pity party. have i been dealt a bad hand in life, Sure. have I had to make the most of what I'v been given, Hell yea! And i'm doing a damn good job. I don't need their help. God will she stop looking at me like that!

I'm not broken!

"I'm just tired kie, that's all." I said exasperatedly

"Still not sleeping huh?" she asks

Damn it! why did i tell her about that again?

'Because your stupid that why!' Said a little voice in the back of my head

'No, It's because we love joe remember!" Said a different voice.

Shut up!

Groaning I say "Yeah, it's been a little hard to fall asleep lately no big deal." trying to sound nonchalant.

"it is a big deal cal! is this about what happened last ye-" she starts

"Kie, Stop! I don't want to talk about it right now!" I say through clenched teeth. I looked around hoping non of the guys had been listening to the conversation. I sighed in relief noticed that they were too busy hitting each other in the balls. Typical.

"I think you should talk about it. At some point." she whispered

"Fine, if it will make you happy i'll look into talking to someone. now can we please just drop this." I ask

She throws me a small grateful smile so i know she is pleased with my response.

I'm not doing that.

I'm not asking for help.

I can't even afford help.

I'm a kook.

with money problems.

ironic isn't it.

lying back down I open my eyes and catch a glimpse of JJ watching me.

he quickly looks away, but not fast enough. I still saw it. I get up and start walking over to him.

"sup pretty boy!"

"what's good pretty girl!" he says with a smile

I was about to open my mouth when John B decides that now is the perfect time to pull into the motel.

Ughhh what a loser!