Wednesday April 17th 224
4:53
Well, wanna know something?
So the other day. I had this strong urge to go into the woods. I finally went.
I had this dream with poppy and branch.
And it was branch.
Now you know my nightmares with these annoying Ass demons😫🥱😤😤😤
Anyways.
I well, months ago had this scene. I got woods in my neighborhood. They, I swear, they live up in there.
I see them and hear them in there.
Anyways. There's this street. I looks like a farm house road. It does, and on one side there this car standing tent that has what not under it. Haven't checked, thinking about it, I might look. But since it's through the woods and that streets dangerous I can't go on it unless I'm with an adult.
Anyways.
It was across the tent area and branch kept telling me "That's where all my "toys" are. 3 different times.
I went over and saw nothing then I looked up and something was pulling me in a certain direction.
So I went towards it then my phone rang.
My dad called me up saying that the tv wasn't working and he needed help.
I said "that was a sign to get out of here"
So I did.
This was Monday I think maybe Sunday. Can't remember.
When I went back he said he fixed it. Or figured it out.
So, I know it was God's way of protecting me.
Another time.
I had a dream where I was in first period in the morning guitar studios and over the speakers. The principle said that there was this girl. We then took out our phones and apparently they sent us a video camera about the girl. She was in a black Hoodia but her face stuck out. It was poppy.
They said, this girl is extremely dangerous and can kill you. Survive throughput the day and make out alive. Good luck.
I then was like "okay, shit"
Then the day goes by and I'm in math class and my and my firend Olivia were up against the wall in between girl and boys bathroom.
Girls bathroom to our right and the boys to our left. Our laptops were out as long as paper work. We were doing something. Some research and then I saw her.
Ooo! Forgot to mention that they said that when she spots you, she will stare at you for a moment and she then kills you.
So I saw her and she went to the entrance of the girls bathroom and bent down as if there was a kid in front of her and stared I got up and told Olivia to get up now.
She asked why. I said cause she's here. She looked to her right and said "so" I asked her if she wanted to die. And she said she didn't care. I said, you want me to lift you up? She said yes. So I did.
In reality I tried to give her a piggy back ride
I fell flat on the floor...I only got two steps in before she was laying on top of me🤣🤣🤣🤣💀💀💀
Anyways, so....I'm like "when I get so strong"
Anyways. We were outside and thank God it was the end of the day. We were outside and our parents were coming to pick us up. I didn't leave til Olivia was with her mom. Then I was going to take my phone out to call my dad to hurry em up.
But then I heard someone say.
Let's play a game. If you here the name Jamie.
Oh shit.....I'll tell you what I'm thinking in a minute.
Anyways.
So when they heard that name they would have to say something then they'd get a surprise.
And I didn't feel like playing a game and this boy older then me, taller came up and grabbed my upper arms and I struggled and he asked why I was struggling and tried to do the name thing. He was able to say it but I roughly tried to pull away and yelled "I'm not playing!!" He asked why. I said "cause I don't want to!!!" I don't know if he ever let go.
But I know in my dreams....he's a random dude. And normally you'll recognize people in your dreams.
I recognize everyone but there always out there in the crowd and I don't recognize them, their strangers in my dream.
These demons aren't man maid and they feast on your fears.
They want a soul...I think it's mine, but u dunno.
But I hop they attack me and no one else....I said out loud they can go to someone else but not me.
I fucking sound like creek damit!!!
Also the name Jamie. There's an autistic kid in my math class for 9th and he...I think...there's two boys. Twins. Jamie and Austin. I think Austin sits in front of me and Jamie sit a little more in front of Austin but in the next roe of seats.
I dared them to do their worst....I wonder if this is it.
I also didn't go to school yesterday. And I saw who I was asg8ned to yesterday. Guitar studios.
Like ummm.....the fact- when I saw that. I was thanking God so hard, I think I started shaking. I was so relieved. But then yet again...it would of been close to it not similar cause me and Olivia don't have any classes and I don't have Guitar studios first thing in the morning. In the binging it was 2nd and my first period in bio. It was in the morning, but not thay early.
I can't tell you how badly my heart dropped when I saw where I was assigned yesterday. I thank God so much.
I don't know, but stuff like that has happened. I don't know maybe God is on my side and nothing is happening since I'm protected....eh whatever.
I think branches death was them telling me that things will get worse...and I'm happy, it let's me know were one step closer to being finished with them.
I've seen horror movies, and they kind of help me out with what I'm dealing with. And it's the only time when I feel the ich to watch a horror movie I learn something.
I'm getting really nervous but I'm leaving it in God's hand. I'm praying the best I can, but I don't wanna ask for to much cause I feel like I'm asking to much from em.
I feel like I also need to be doing something but I can't figure out what it is.
I'm......okay......yeah. okay. Should I say that. *smiles in pain* I'm good. *is tired of all this trauma and evil*.....I'm okay guys...really. I'm safe with god........safe.....I am🥲🥲🥲🫠🫠
*thinks back to all those horrifying night mares and all the shit and blood and gore I witnessed*
"God, please give me the strength, fight my battles, fill me with peace and hop"
I can do this guys.....i.....I can🥲🥲.
*laughs a little*
itsCLAYYYYYYYYY maybe I'll be happy when it's over.....*anxiety causing me to shake* I'm doing my best......🥲🥲....I still remember what you said......but it so hard because my happy place in the wilderness.
I'm picking my skin around my nails....I see blood. It dried up....but I can't stop. I do it without thinking.
Anyways. Love you~
Adios
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