Angel's sin

chapter 5

Amelia~ 

  "Hell is empty and all the devils are here, many broken children living in grown bodies mimicking adult lives. "

My stomach in knots, pain radiating from my body, my breathing labored.....Fucking hell I'm sure he broke at least a couple ribs, I can't catch a fucking break 2 years TWO FUCKING YEARS of this nonstop abuse, I thought back to the memories of when I was happy, it's really over and all I'm left with is the ever lasting pain of never seeing her again. Life has lots its worth I crave the blood and pain their beatings bring.....to just feel something other then the ache of Lilith and my parents being dead.

As Footsteps approach the door to the basement, my heartbeat quickens so much that I feel it in my throat, the anticipation of another beating readying me for what's to come. Seconds that feel like years pass as I wait for my uncles men to open the door and lead me to the torture room. In that moment I wanted to vanish so completely that even I would not remember me—no feelings, no memories, just the freedom of oblivion. 

I'm shaken from my thoughts as the door is slammed open and my uncle's second in command, Rafael comes in ....fuck I would've preferred my uncle instead at least I know there's a boundary he wont cross unlike him.... 

I scooted as close to the wall as I could as he approached me his eyes holding a menacing air in them his mouth in the same sinister smirk he always held.

Aaameeeliaaaa

Sweet little Amelia 

Come here Darling, the threat underlying in his tone left no room for me to argue yet I made no move to get closer to him. He scoffed, silence enveloping us in the basement an open area leaving nowhere for me to run or hide. 

His patience must've run thin as he stormed towards me yanking me upright from the floor, I said come here you stupid bitch. I struggled to fight against him praying my uncle would come in or someone would save me from this. I bit his arm and  scratched his face as he finally let go of me throwing me on the floor,  my head hitting the concrete first I immediately felt dizzy I raised my hand touching the spot as I brung my fingers in my eye sight I saw blood. Yet I couldn't think of the pain in my head  as Rafael's foot came in contact with my stomach. His hand grabbing mine and braking my fingers.... That'll teach you not to bite the hand that feeds you next time.. he says.

After receiving yet Another beating he stood back as if to appreciate his work, as I laid half dead on the floor my chest rising slowly, I felt relief momentarily as I welcomed sleep yet rafael moved towards me again I tried moving back yet I couldn't 

 my heartbeat going through the roof and all of a sudden the temperature in the air felt 10 times colder. 

He hovered over me ripping the clothes that barely provided me any comfort, I tried I really did yet it was all in vain his legs locking mine in place my arms tied with his belt over my head... everything seemed to happen so fast yet so slow.... i felt ringing in my ears as he delivered another blow to my face to stop me from screaming.

My crying the only other noise heard in this shallow basement pain erupted in my chest as my innocence was stripped away from me.  His grunting in my ear as tears slid down my face.  I close my eyes tight praying he stops yet to no avail, he goes up and down....again and again. Maybe it's for the better at least now there was nothing they could do to really hurt me anymore.

The world seemed to of stopped turning as he seemed to repeat his actions like clockwork,

i felt it engraved in my bones, 

i felt it numb me,

I felt myself die inside,

 Any sense of warmth i felt was gone. My innocence was taken from me and i could do nothing but watch. Static fills my head, white noise so loud i barely hear him and the noises he's making

You asked for it, he says.

Tempting me, looking at me with those defiant eyes of yours, he says grunting.

My skin burned as if i were being bathed in molten lava, forgive me father for i have sinned. I have sinned. I have sinned, i repeat like a mantra. I wish i would've died along side my parents yet i know what's done is done, i know after this i will never feel anything again......... touch would never be the same again.

After what seems like an eternity, he finally leaves. A small sense of relief floods through me yet its gone as fast as it came. Minutes passed as i lay in the same spot long after he left, i guess the adrenaline was still hot and kicking as i suddenly thought of a plan to escape this hell. 

I knew the layout of the basement like the back of my hand yet i didn't out there that thought disheartened me, yet i let that go as i knew the guards in place outside would be switching soon and that very one would come in to check i was still alive like always, I would need to gather any strength i have left if i wanted to get out of here......Fuck everywhere hurt......my body ached and felt as if it was screaming at me in protest of moving yet i did so anyway. I got up and crawled closer to the door. 

Suddenly the door opened and the guard came in to check like always i stopped my breathing acting asleep hopefully from his point of view dead, i  held my breath for as long as i could. I prayed that he was stupid enough to not check my pulse and only under my nose, and that he did. I heard him curse and run out of the basement as soon as he was out of sight i ran as fast as i could toward any door i could find after a while i found a door in this big ass mansion and opened and kept running.....keep running i tell myself.