Angel's sin

Chapter 3

Lilith~

As I made my way to the office, the rain continued to pour, matching the turmoil in my mind. The Italian mafia's sudden appearance was concerning. It meant trouble, and I needed to be prepared. But amidst the professional façade I wore, a storm of emotions raged within me. Them being here Is not something I needed right now; fuck I cannot be worrying about this I need to focus as long as they don't try anything then ill leave them be.

As I pulled into my office's parking, I couldn't help but feel everything happening so fast the meeting with my underman was a blur as my thoughts wandered, drifting back to memories of happier times with my sister. The ache in my heart intensified, gnawing at me like a relentless beast. I knew I couldn't dwell on the past, but the pain was a constant reminder of my failure to protect her. The office being in place to cover up my other business and workings of being the donna for the Spanish mafia.

As the discussion progressed, my mind was elsewhere, caught between the present danger and the ghosts of the past. My capos exchanged information and strategies, but I couldn't shake the feeling of impending doom the Italian mafia being here was not helping either, maybe I should meet with the Don and threaten them a little you know, give em a nice little greeting. As I think what I should do I come up with a plan to just hack into their servers and leave a little sweet message, oh maybe I should steal some shipments too to replace mine.....mmm....decisions....decisions. As I finalized what to do I snap back to reality as the meeting comes to an end.

After the meeting is adjourned, I retreated to my main office, seeking solace in the solitude it offered. Alone with my thoughts, I stared out the rain-streaked window, the city obscured by a veil of water. I love the rain, its comfort it brings yet I cannot deny in that it always leads my thoughts to spiral. When your young you don't really realize how much growing up in a toxic family affects you. It truly hits you when you're older, when your alone. Questions arise....why cant you give or receive love properly?...why is it so hard for you to show emotions? Yet also feel so much inside...showing and receiving affection is uncomfortable for you. Yet you know people love but you just feel so alone and lost....feeling despair not being able to reciprocate others love towards you.

A knock at the door interrupted my reverie, and Emory entered, her presence a welcome distraction. She regarded me with concern, her gaze penetrating the walls I had erected around my emotions.

Are you okay, V? she asked softly, her voice a balm to my troubled soul. I forced a smile, masking the turmoil within me.

I'm fine, Emory. Just preoccupied with business, I replied, my tone clipped.

She didn't press further, sensing my reluctance to divulge the depths of my turmoil. Instead, she offered words of encouragement, a reminder of the strength I possessed beneath the armor I wore.

You're the strongest person I know, V. Whatever it is your worrying about, we'll face them together, she said, her conviction unwavering.

Her words resonated within me, stirring a flicker of hope amidst the darkness that threatened to consume me. In that moment, I realized that I wasn't alone, that I had allies who stood by my side, ready to weather the storms that lay ahead.

 I straightened in my chair, the weight of responsibility settling upon my shoulders once more. The Italian mafia may pose a threat, but I would meet it head-on, i will NOT cower and bow my head.

As the rain continued to fall outside, I steeled myself for the challenges that awaited, ready to confront the demons of the past and any who want to come crawling out of the hell hole i put em in with unwavering determination. For in the darkness, I found my strength to carry on, fueled by the memories of her and the promise of a brighter future yet to come.

Yet as  I got ready to finally work, I looked up to see Emory still there she had this look on her face like as she wanted to tell me something but was hesitating. 

Did you want to tell me something? I ask her. After what felt like minutes of her standing in the doorway she finally comes in and takes a seat in front of me.

V....please..... don't get mad she says.

I wont..... though it depends on what your about to tell me so just tell me what's making you all jittery I say in a serious tone.

Isortafoundmylostbrotherandiwenttomeetwithoutdoingabackgroundcheckincaseitwasatrapbutonthebrightsideitwasactuallyhimsonoharmdone she says all in one breath.

.....girl.... what the hell did you just say no entendi nada, I tell her.

As she repeats herself more comprehensively this time, I found him... she says

who? i ask 

my older brother helios... remember i told you about him she says.

ah yes helios it does wring a bell now that you mention it, but im not sure why you think i'd be mad about that? i ask.

wellll...... i went to see him... without checking and i know what your going to say i should've told you and the girls that i should've been careful... she says

Em it's okay yes you should've been careful for all you know it could've been a trap and you could've gotten hurt, good thing is your okay and that its him. i say

i can see her shoulders relax once she knows im not upset im happy for her truly......

 I cant help but feel jealous that she found her brother, I know that losing her family also broke her the same goes for the rest of the girls yet as soon as that feeling comes it leaves and is replaced by happiness that she found him and that he's alive.

Em Im sooooo happy for you, I stand up and pull her into a hug; why would you think I'd be upset at you for finding him I ask her. Well I didn't check if this was a trap that one of our enemies set out, and I didn't tell none of you guys.....honestly I was scared if I did I'd find out that this wasn't him and I'd be devasted all over again.... She says.

Well I do see where you went wrong there, but you know I wouldn't truly get mad at you I just want to be safe I say softly. NOW enough of that when do we get to meet I ask? Do you want me to tell the girls or will you tell them? either option is fine I wont say anything unless you want me to so feel free to take your time I tell her.

She takes a ,minute to responds pondering what to do she replies; well he said he wanted me to meet his friends maybe I can ask to bring you guys he'll probably say yes my Fratello will never say no to me she says smugly. As for the girls can you be with me when I tell them? She asks of course we can tell them over dinner I reply.