Love Is Complicated

Chapter 20

Zuri POV

I've been sleeping on the couch to avoid Anthony as much as possible. Today his dad signed me up for a therapy lesson. I don't wanna go because I don't trust them with my baby. Imma just go so I can get done with this bullshit.

I make it to the therapy session dressed in a black hoodie and sweat pants. The lady walks in. I sigh.

"Hello. How are you doing?" She asks me.

"Good I guess," I say.

"OK ok good. I noticed on your file that you have mental issues that take over your brain?" She asks me.

"Yeah."

" So what would you call these mental issues?" The lady asks.

" I would say there are more of intrusive thoughts then a mental issue." I  say.

"Ok lets get to the point. Why did yiu hit him?" She asks me.

I shurg my sholders. She contuines to look at me.

"I dont know. He just gets me worked up sometimes to the point where I want to hurt him so he feels how I feel." I say.

"Ok. * writes* Do you love him?" The lady asks.

"I mean yeah. I just feel our relationship is falling apart because little things."   

" Ok ok. Now tell me this, why do you love him?" They lady asks me.

I think for a moment.

"I mean he cares for me when I'm actually sad and when I ask him to buy something he buys it or when he takes care of me. I think I'm just the problem."

Anthony POV

My friend, Cam walks up to me and dabs me up.

"Yoo, what's good?" Cam says to me.

"Wassup. I'm aight." I say.

"Someone got in a fight huh?" Cam asks me.

I laugh.

"It wasn't really a fight, to be honest. Just a disagreement that turned violent."  I say.

"Real question is who did it 'cause I'm finna jump in if there's an issue," Cam said.

"Nah nah, it was just Zuri," I say quietly.

"That bitch? She is the craziest baby momma I ever seen." Cam says.

"I mean I don't know it was kinda my fault anyway," I say brushing it off.

I go home and wash up. I go downstairs and see Zuri. She pulls the cover over her face. I walk over to her and pull it down.

"Anthony, I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. You probably can't forgive me but just know I'm sorry and you didn't deserve anything I did to you. I don't deserve you at all." Zuri says while crying.

I stand there for a few seconds. Zuri usually never apologizes. I wipe her tears and kiss her cheek.

"It's ok. I was in the wrong. It's just sometimes I feel alone in this relationship. I feel as if I'm the only one putting effort in." I say to her.

"Oh god. *sniffles* I can't even look at what I did to your face. I'm such a bad person. I don't wanna seem like a pick me but I actually am and you know it too." Zuri says very sad.

I sit on the couch and cuddle with her.

" No, you're not. I understand that I may have hurt your feelings before, but please know that you are unique and valued just the way you are. Don't ever feel like you need to be someone else to please anyone. Be confident in being yourself and know that you are appreciated for who you are." I say confidently.

Zuri looks at me and starts to make out with me.

"You know why I love you?" Zuri says.

"Why?"

"Because you don't use me for sex and dumb shit like my ex did. You actually care. And I hope to never lose that from you." Zuri says.

I smile.