things I could never tell him.

It's okay and alright maybe.

Dear him,

It is okay and alright maybe,

that you can never look at me the way you look at her.

It is okay and alright maybe,

that I lose and gain feelings for you day by day.

words that I can't say,

get stuck in my throat.

I say never mind and carry the load.

in my thoughts and my mind,

there's nothing more divine,

than your love and your smile,

Both which can never be mine.

so I just sit here and pray for the best,

both for you and me.

It gives me no glee but,

"hey! look at the moon, shining bright today darling."

please just tuck me in your arms without quarreling.

kiss me deeper under the moonlight.

this must be the last beautiful sight,

I wound up my own injuries and walk with you tonight.

maybe my love for you has no heights,

maybe it cannot be broken with any greatest might.

and I keep talking about myself  loving you.

do you talk about me in that way too?

you don't.

but you know what.

go be with her, for love is sacrifice.

but just wanted you to know,

my stomach's full of jumping squirrels,

and my mind's roaming full of circles.

I may never tell you,

but it's okay and alright maybe,

that you affect me too much.

it's okay and alright maybe,

that your voice gives me the smile on my face no one else could ever give.

that your presence makes me want to live.

at the end of the day, I'm just crying,

and I'm alright with the fact that the reason is you.

                                                                                            -Annie