MOON

Prologue

Have you ever heard about the story of Sol (Sun) and Luna (Moon)??

Because I do.

And the story never failed to relate it to my own modern life. Although there are some circumstances that doesn't really quite describe the setting and situations of the story, but you might probably say that my story had something in common with the story of Sol and Luna.

My life at first, is kinda pathetic to imagine. I don't think some of you might survive the track of my experience.

Every single stupid experience had happened to me since the day I was born. I wouldn't want to share every single details of it because im afraid you might not be interested.

Just like what I said. I'm a very problematic person since I was only a kid. Every kids you can imagine are only concerned with their toys,.video games, and playmates to play with, but my situation is different than what you thought it would be.

Of course I play when I was a child, but I am also curious about every adult things and topics. I have tons of questions that I wanted to be answered.

Like, why do we dream? Why do we have to live when we're destined to die in this world? Why do humans matter? Is the universe truly infinite? Is there really a time travel? Why do we have to love the person we used to hate and also hate us? Do we really need to repair the things that we did in the past? Something like that.

I make theories of the cause and possibilities of every occurrence big or small. But none of it matters when I was a kid. No one believed in my beliefs. Because I was a kid.

Let's just say I have a knack for observing things. I became curious about everything I find intriguing and amusing.

...

When I grew up. I thought it would be all just pure fun.

But I was wrong.

Children were born to become adults.

And children were also born to become less happier.

I thought it didn't makes sense but it did.

Everything becomes clear now that I've reached high school.

We've experienced the things we thought would only happen in the movies we've watched.

Cyber, physical and verbal bullying. Suicidal attempts. Depression. Disappointment. Anxiety. False anticipation. Loss of hope. Nearly losing a love one. Being blamed. Being ashamed of. Higher expectations. Aiming higher. Attention seeking. Unhealthy obsession. Adverse manners. Turbulence.

Death.

All of it happened in just one snap of a finger.

I didn't know despite every negative thing, there could also be a single spark of joy in this high school life I'm at.

The highschool Romance.

Such a wonderful thing to ever witness.

I'm so curious about this kind of phenomena that I also want to experience it some day.

The feeling when you get to love one person and wishing for them to love you back.

The butterflies in your stomach and the convergences of both eyes in a distance. Which they called nonverbal language.

I didn't expect that the "some day" could happen the moment I step into this amazing school.

I met a guy whom I thought I couldn't like.

And end up being a joke at all.

At first, I didn't understand why I love that guy at all. But, later on, everything suddenly made sense.

He has given light to my darkest night.

He had given me hope, a hope to live, to fight, and to strive.

I'm just like the moon. Dark, hollow, (radiant), gloomy, dim, and white. Always hiding in the dark with it's light reflecting the ray of the sky.

He's the sun. Shining, shimmering, and splendid. As bright as the morning star. And a raging fire, shedding light on the obscured facets of my being.

I thought our feelings were meant to collide.

But no.

Turns out it's one sided.

Stupid me, I thought Sol is supposed to love Luna. I thought eclipse is destined to happen just so the sun and moon could have the opportunity to admit to each other and love one another unconditionally. The myth said so.

But it's all wrong. Way too fictional. Way too mythical.

Turns out I'm giving all my gleam to the daylight who's still hoping for the love of his heliophile(lover of the sun).

To put it simple...

I am in love with someone who's in love with someone else.

And it hurts. To even imagine.

Sadness is contagious.

The Secrets that we've held in our hearts, we talk it all out to the moon.

We never want to express our desires to the person we love because we're afraid to lose them. We're afraid to lose their trust, we're afraid to lose their existence in our life.

And most importantly, we're afraid to lose the friendship we created with SO much effort.

We never get the happy ending we want because that happy ending was also looking for it's own happiness.

That's my own version of "Sol and Luna"

It's never the happy ending you've expected.

But if parallel universe were to be true, then, would he somehow perhaps, accept my own feelings in another life?

Well,

I'm looking forward to witnessing it my own self...