Without Spark

Talented

....There is Max standing with Daniel and Charles,I open the door.
"What the hell are they doing here?"I say quietly and confused.
"Sneaking you out?"Max says.
"How?I hope you Dont want me to jump?!"I say confused with a shock in my voice.
"Its second floor,Its not that height." Max says.
"Not that height?!Are you out of your fucking mind,I can asure you that with my luck I will break my legs!?"I say.
While charles and Daniel are laughing.
"Come on Nic,you can do it." Max say.
"Well I Have to,I dont Have a choice?!"I say while stepping from window,"oh god" I say.
"If something happens to me I will kill you!'' i say to Max,while I jump from the window,now I am standing down with them."im never doing this again do you hear me!?" I say while putting on my heels."Geez it wasnt that bad Nic." He say,while I look at him with sharp eyes,and then I look at Danny and Charles with a soft smile.
"Hi its nice meeting you."I say.
"Its nice to meet you too,we should probably go." Danny says while giggling a little,I turn to Max and we go to his car while we drive to the party,when we get there I can see other drivers being at one of the tables,I look at Max worried.
"Whats wrong Nic?" He says stopping.
"What if they wont like me?"I say while looking at them happily talking.
"Nic dont worry,they will love you."He says with soft eyes,while behind us Daniel came running and smiling to the drivers hugging them while behind him was standing Charles laughing,and I notice some drivers looking at me And Max.
I take a deep breathe and go sit there with Max."This is Nicole my sister.Max says."Hi"I say being shy."You should seen her jumping out off window." Daniel says laughing,while next to him Charles Is giggling,I can feel someone eyes on me,when I look searching for the eyes I see Lando again,He was looking at me with a grin.After while the drivers got up and go to the dance floor while I sit there alone,in meanwhile someone sit next to me."Why are you here all alone?Why dont you go to your Brother?" Lando asks
"I could ask you the same why are you not dancing and celebrating your third place." I ask curious." Well I seen you here all alone,So tell me why arent you with them." He Is looking at me with his beautiful eyes,oh my gosh I could drown in them,"They all look So happy,I dont want to be there as the black sheep and ruin the Fun." I say sighting."You wouldnt ruin it,they like you as their friend just come with me I can show you. He says,he way So kind to me So I smiled and got up going with him to dance,I danced with the other drivers too I had so much fun last thing I remember was the drinks I was drinking and the music playing loud,Now its morning and im lying in my bed,when dad knocks on my door."Nic come eat breakfast,we Have to go to race." So I get up And go to bathroom,when I look in the mirror I see myself looking completely wasted I quickly cover everything with make up and put on some clothes hading to breakfast while meeting Max on tje stairs
"You look wasted!"He says while laughing."shut up" I say.
"Yesterday was Fun."He says with grin.
We get to the breakfast table and start to eat, and again dad and Max are talking about racing not caring about me,I just could feel the star inside me fading again."Dad I wanna go to Karting race tommorow."I say,and them there Is silence I could feel his eyes on me.
"Nicole we talked about this hundred times,karting is not for girls and I need to focus on Max to make him Champion."He say angrily."But dad she is really good she could be like me,or even better than me." Max says trying to help me out.
While dad anger is boiling he slam his hands on table making loud noise.
"I said no!Karting is not for girls,And she could never make it anyway!"He says angrily,while I could feel the tears coming to my eyes."Now go get some nice clothes and meet us in the car." He says while I go to my room,I could hear Max trying to convience him,but he was refusing.I get to my room And put on nice clothes And head out to the car,I felt the star fading and my spark going away but I need to look happy and strong.
I get to the car and we drive to the paddock again everywhere were paparazzi's pushing and screaming I was holding Max's hand not letting go,When we get to redbull I sit down because I didnt want to argue with him anymore.
Max came to me "Nic im-." Before he finishes his sentece I stop him.
"Its Okay Maxie,He is right."I say.
"No he is not Nic,you are talented you can't throw it just becaouse of someone not believing in you,I go with you to the race."He says trying to make it up.
"Max it doesn't matter,just win this race for me."I say and he smiles softly with sad eyes going to his formula."I sight and look at Lando while he is heading to his formula,When he looks at me I quickly look away because my dad was watching me,then my dad come to me.
"Nic listen to me,I know you want to be like Max,but not everyone had his talent."He says,these words were really hurting me because He didnt see me race."I know dad." I say hurted trying to sound Okay."But you have good fashion,you could be fashionist." He say,but I didnt wanted to be fashionist I wanted to he racer,I just smile at him while he pats at my shoulder while smiling,How I hate this guy.
Max was doing great again he had first place,second was Charles and third was again Lando,We run to celebrate Max's win while I was making eye contacts with Lando,it was pretty awkward,when we go in the redbull I smile and wave at Lando and I hear someone whisper.
"Nicole we have rules!" My father whisper to me,so I look away,when we get home Max and dad walk first while Max was holding his trophy and talking with dad,I go to my room feeling the star fading I could feel my heart breaking in pieces,but I still acted like I was okay.
After hour I feel knock on my door,while Max enters in. "Ready for your karting race?" He asks me while I was fighting my tears." Oh Nic what happened." He says going to me and hugging me.
"I dont think I will go."I say.
"Why nic?I will go with you Dont worry."
He says not understanding.",Its not worth it,I should be fashionist." I say,And Max knew what was going on." Nic fuck our father you Have talent And you deserve everything,Now get yourself together and meet me in the car and no buts." He say smiling and leaving me alone So I could get ready,He was really supporting and always on my side I was thankfull for everything he done to me.
I get ready and meet him in the car.
"I almost forgot to tell that I Have a surprise for you."He says with grin,and with exciting voice." What surprise." I look at him with happy eyes."im not telling you,you will see." He says,I was really happy his surprises were healing my inner child because at the moments I felf like a little kid,when we get there he put his arms on my eyes so I can't see.
"Max if I fall I will make sure you will be coming Down with me." I say pretty loudly,Max giggles after while we stopped walking."are we here?Or not yet?" I ask him "we are here!" He says while he puts his arms off my eyes,I look in front of me And see some of the drivers being there,my eyes lighten up and I Have tears because the only one who ever supported me was Max and seeing THE drivers being here is just So good. "What are you guys doing here." I say while hugging Danny. "What do you think,to support you." Danny say.
"This is So nice of you guys thank you." I say and make eye contact with Lando while having tears."Dont cry and go get ready,I can't Wait to see you race." Charles says And I run happily to get ready.
"She looks So happy." Charles says.
"Yea she is." Max says while looking at me run Away,and then they go to take a seat while they meet some fans.
I get in my Kart and the race starts,I was So fast And I was overtaking whoever I seen,from 12 place I was in third.
Drivers pov:
"She is really good."Danny says.
"I was telling you,I wish dad would see this." Max says.
"Why isnt he here?" Charles asks,while Lando looks at Max with concern.
"She isnt even supposed to be here,father thinks that girls can't be in motorsport,and that she doesnt have talent and it would be better if she was fashionist." He say while the drivers feels sorry,Lando looks back at me seeing me karting feeling sad for how our father is.
"Man she deserves better." Lando says.

After the race,I run to them And hug Max."Did you see it,I am at third place and I overtook like 8 people." I say happily."You did great Nicole,you really have talent." Charles says,while Lando looks at me with sad eyes,I didnt know why he was looking at me with them but I didnt really care I was just focusing on how I did in the race."well Nic we should go So father wont get suspicious." He says and we drive home where dad was waiting for us. "Where have you been?" He asks us."We Went to this reálky good restaurant and we had ice cream too." I say covering up for us."Thats So sweet from you Max,you are such a good Brother,im really proud of you." He says tapping on his shoulder while I just Stand there looking at him, because He never said that he was proud of me.
    What about me?what about me?
I leave to my room cause I didnt wanted to disturb their father and som moment I wish that mom was here,she went on business trip,I really miss her here.
I go to bathroom doing some skincare, and them I go to bed,and I hear a knock on the door while dad gets in the room.
"Hi Nic,I just wanted to check up on you And wish you good Night." He says.
"Good night dad." I say "You are really lucky to have Max as your Brother he is really Nico to you." He say." Yea he is." I smile And he leaves,I felt heartbroken was it hard for dad to say that he is proud of me or just say something nice that he says to Max,my heart was back in pieces.I hear another knock it was really starting to annoy me "come in" I say and Max enters."Hey Nic I just wanted to say that I am proud of you, because I know that dad dont know these words." He says well he knows these words but just when it comes to Max.
"Thank you Maxie,and thanks for today." He acted better than dad to me, I loved him for that."No worries,so goodnight and sweet dreams." He says "good Night to you too Maxie." I say and we smile at each other while he leaves,I lay in bed almost asleep when someone texts me,
When I look at the phone I see....