Marina/Stefanielle ONE-SHOTS

Too Loud (marina)

| Carina's pov

"Hi, Bambina" I said as soon as she answered FaceTime. It had been a long shift, I was tired, but also a little triggered, since one of my patients had been yelling at her son all day long. It kind of brought back some bad memories and I didn't want to go home alone, so I called Maya to ask if I could meet her at the station.

"Hey, my love." She smiled, but it quickly turned into a worried look as she saw my face. "Are you okay? What's up, Baby?"

"Humm... Nothing- I- I- Just- one of my patients was yelling all day and- and I got a little triggered."

"Oh, I'm sorry, princess. Do you wanna come over so you won't be alone?"

I had talked to Maya about my childhood many times. She knew my father was bipolar and that I easily got triggered from yelling, because he used to do it all the time when I was a little Bambina.

"Yeah... Yeah, that would be nice." I said, happy I didn't have to ask for it.

Of course I would have no problem doing that with Maya, but sometimes I feel like I'm bothering in some way, so it's easier when she's the one who suggests it.

"Okay, my love. I'll be waiting for you at the entrance. Do you want to stay on the phone?"

"If I'm not bothering you..."

"Of course you're not, babe. You'll never be a bother to me, okay? You're the most important thing in my life. I'm always here for you. Always."

"Thank you." I replied, really grateful Maya knew exactly what I needed to hear.

| Maya's pov

We stayed on the phone while she was driving. I talked about a funny call we had had, trying to get her attention on something else, rather than the memories of her childhood, that I knew were very present in her mind. I could tell she was exhausted. Her eyes were barely open, and her voice was slow. I just wanted to get her settled and cuddle her until she fell asleep.

When she arrived, I was waiting at the door, as promised.

"Hey, Baby..." I said, leaning for a kiss and pulling her into a tight hug right after. She immediately relaxed into me. "It's okay. I'm here now."

"I- I'm sorry being like this... It- It's just- I-" She started as she pulled away.

"No! No, no! It's okay. It's alright, sweetheart. You're safe here." I tried to assure her, but she looked down. "Look at me, baby. Hey..." I said, pulling her face up with my hands. "It's okay. I'm not annoyed, and I'm definitely not mad at you for getting triggered, Carina. It's something you can't control and I'm happy you felt safe enough to come to me, okay? I'm here, you're safe, sweetheart." She nodded and I kissed her forehead.

A single tear escaped from her beautiful brown eyes, and I quickly wiped it away.

"Come on, let's go to my office." She nodded and I guided her, putting my hand in her lower back. "Alright, do you wanna lay down, princess?" I asked as I closed the door.

"No... I- I don't think I can sleep." She said, nearly whispering.

"What about we sit in the chair? You can sit on my lap and if you fall asleep, I'll carry you to the bed."

"Will you stay with me?" She asked in a scared voice.

"The whole time, my love. I've already asked Andy to step in for me. I'm only on desk duty now."

"Okay..."

I sat down first and helped her to do the same. She turned to the side and rested her head on my chest, crawling into me and clutching my shirt strongly. I would run my finger through her hair and draw patterns on her back, under her jacket.