My Heart Belongs To You

Broken Pieces

Chapter 18

Laney

    It was a quiet Monday morning in Ms Jame's class. I wasn't paying much attention to what she was saying the entire time she was talking. I couldn't push aside what was bothering me to the back of mind. Andy knew something was bothering me. He kept asking me what was wrong ever since we left for school this morning. And as usual I said "nothing" and "I'm fine". But who was I kidding. How could I be? How can I tell him what was wrong? I wasn't being completely honest with him and that was ripping me to pieces.

"Laney?" Ms. James says interrupting my thoughts.
"Huh?" I say looking up to see Ms. James staring back at me.
"What do you think?" Ms James asked.
"About what?" I respond.

"Ms. Watson did you not hear a word I said?" Ms James asked. Only this time the rest of the class was staring at me including Andy who was seated next to me.

"Are you okay Laney?" Ms James asks with concern look in her eyes.

"Babe?" Andy says reaching over.

Before I could even respond I panicked and grabbed my bag and ran out of class with Ms James calling out my name behind me. I didn't even realized Andy had grabbed his bag and followed me out. I ran down the hallway as fast as I could until I reached the corridors and pushed through it until I was outside. I ran down the front steps of the school building with Andy tailing behind me calling my name. Andy finally grabbed a hold of my shoulder to stop me.

"Laney?! Baby what's wrong?!" Andy shouts.
"I can't do this!" I shouted back with tears pooling in my eyes.

"Can't do what? What's going on?"

"This! Me and you! Who are we kidding?!" I shouted tears falling down my cheeks.

"I don't understand. Laney?" Andy steps forward towards me but I take a step back leaving Andy more confused. I looked down at the sidewalk and looked back up to see Andy staring back at me.

"Andy. When was the last time you were with your band?" I asked.

"Shit I don't know. A couple weeks. Wait what does this have to do with us?"

"Everything Andy." I say.  "You can't give up your dreams for me. I won't let you. Not like this." I say wiping away the tears that escape going down my cheek.

"I'm not giving up anything. I'm just...putting it on hold. It can wait...it can always happen later. I want you Laney. I belong with you." Andy says.

"Not like this. You have to follow what you were set out to do. And I have to follow mine." I say.

"What are you saying? You wanna break up? Fuck Laney! What is this shit?!" Andy shouts with tears forming in his eyes.

I didn't want to break up with him but this is what we have to do. This is what I gotta do. I loved Andy with every ounce in my soul. But I couldn't let him give up something he wanted to do for so long. Something he wanted to do before I came along. I couldn't be selfish like that...not with Andy. And if this is what I have to do...I have to let him go because I love him. I have to let him live his dream. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if he didn't.

"I'm sorry but we just can't." I cry.

"Tell me you don't love me?! Tell me you don't love me and I'll fuckin walk away!" Andy shouts with tears going down his cheeks.

"I..I...don't love you." Knowing deep down that I didn't mean it and it hurt so much to say those words.

"I don't fuckin believe you. If you don't love me you'll say it again." Andy says gritting his teeth.

I sighed and swallowed the lump in my throat. I couldn't say it again. "I'm sorry." I say taking a step back before turning away and running. I couldn't turn back no matter how much I wanted too. I couldn't look back at Andy and look at the mess I have caused and how much I just hurt him. I wanted so much to turn back and hug Andy and tell him that it was all a stupid mistake and tell him how much I loved him. But I couldn't. So I kept running.