Is it better to enjoy it when it happend even tho it broke my heart
Or would it have been better if it never happened?
If it never happend i wouldnt have known how it felt to be with him
How his lips felt
How his touch felt
How it felt to be loved by him
How it felt to be his
I wouldnt have known if it didnt happen so it woouldnt have mattered right?
And this gut wrenching feeling wouldnt exist
My shattered heart would still be whole
I wish it never happend
I loved what was
But i hate the hurt that it left behind
If it all never happened i wouldnt have thesee memories to morn i would have all these things i used to adore
I would have this empty feeling
I wish it didnt happen
I would have been better off staying away
Because everytime i try to open the gates
The crowds flood and break what i hoped they would fix
And i never learn from my miskates
