Last string to hold on

Chapter 2

                                                                        Rae Larsen 

I can't believe that Mason would defend her over me! "My problem is that you can't date this bitch" Mason was glaring at me now, when I turned my head to Alison she looked like she wanted to kill me, then she opened her mouth "Well that BITCH is dating your brother so get over it." Right now murder doesn't seem like a really bad idea for me. "Ok let me give you a little reminder " I stepped forward and pushed her "Right now you're in MY house so you better watch your mouth." Jameson spoke up, "Okay now everybody calm down, Rae let's just go up to your room." I looked at him and nodded. "Who the fuck is he" I looked back to see who the words came from, it was Alex. his eyes throwing daggers at Jameson. "He isn't any of your business" I looked him dead in the eye, then turned back to Jameson, and Sara who was glaring at Alison. "Come on guys let's go to my room."

 As we headed up the stairs all I could feel was pure anger. It was running in me, I was mad at Mason and at my self for caring that he defended her, when we reached my room we sat in complete silence, it was Jameson who broke it "So ladies if you excuse me I need to go get ready for school." I looked at him confused "What school are you attending?" he looked at me and smirked "I may be joining your school." Suddenly all the anger I was feeling vanished, "Shut up no way" "yes way!" I looked at him then at Sara who was smiling at me then back to Jameson "Ok buddy go now and don't be late tomorrow, come pick me and Sara up." He looked at me as I pointed at the door for him to get out. "Omg do you really want to get rid of me that fast? Its only been a day." I tried to hide my laugh. "Yes you're existence annoys me so leave" he mutters something under his breath that I can't quite catch and heads out and closes the door behind. I look back at Sara. "Will your parents let you stay tonight?" I asked. She says in a sad tone, "About that, yea sorry I can't I need to spend the night with grandma before she goes back to France". And then my mood changes again. "Yeah it's ok don't worry about it." it's not ok I don't want her to leave I don't want to be left alone with my thoughts, I don't want to remember that day. After 15 minutes Sara goes back to her house and I'm left alone, I look up to the clock on my desk, it's 11pm I need to sleep. I go to the bathroom and strip off my clothes and head into the shower and then when I'm done I put on a towel on and do my skin care, and then head to bed I stare at the ceiling and wait for sleep to come and it doesn't take long.

Nightmare/flash back

I wake up to a notification on my phone, It's Ava. How dare she text me after what she did. I look up to the clock, it's 2:00am and then I remember my assignments, I run a hand through my hair and untangle it. I sit in my desk and when I'm done it's 5am. oh my god I'm tired. And then the same feeling hits me again, the one in my stomach. Something's wrong. I try to ignore it but it's doesn't go away so I lay in my bed and wait. The sun is starting to rise I can see the orange and pink colors on my ceiling so I get up and put on a denim skirt and a leather jacket, the one that my grandma got for me on my 15th birthday. When I arrive to school I go look for Sara and when I reach her. Her blue eyes are looking at me with unease."Hey what's wrong?" I'm starting to worry. "Ava sent me a text she- " Sara got interrupted by the announcement. "Dear students, we are sorry to inform you that the student, Ava hu, had died due to suicide at 2:20 am today. May she rest in peace." My ears are pounding I can't hear anything, Ican't breathe and my vision is blurry, I look up to Sara to see her sobbing, I try to close my eyes so this nightmare goes away. When I open them nothing changes, no no no no this can't be happening. I can fix this right? And then it hits me. The message. Ava sent me a message. I open my phone, my fingers trembling and then I start reading "Rae I want to thank you for everything for the friendship, the memories, for everything. I love you Rae and I'm so sorry that I had to leave things like this between us. I love you Rae and I will always love you. Hope you can forgive me. Goodbye." No no no this can't happen right? There has to be a solution. Every problem has a solution, if you work hard enough you could fix stuff. But no this is death. It's final. Done. Ava is gone, and then suddenly I'm running, running until I can't breathe, running until I can't see anything, running until I can't feel anything, I don't know where I'm going but I just have to keep running. And then I stop in front of a blue door that I have seen so many times before. That I have always waited for her to open on the other side, so many times that I recognized every single detail about it. And then it opens and Mrs. Hu cheeks are stained with tears and when she sees me she breaks down and I finally allow myself to fall into her arms." Mrs. Hu" my voice trembles "Where is Ava I wanna talk to her please call her for me." And she hugs me tighter as if she won't ever let go of me.