Does It End?

Cold

Tw:talk of self harm
Aiden's pov

"I need to get my shit under control before they find out. I can't let them find out." I mumble to myself. I look around the room and it's a wreck. Cups and garbage on my desk, bloody tissues and a few blades on the floor alongside Ben's first aid kit. I fell into a bad depressive episode for 5 days. I've been ignoring everyone except Ben and I've only left my room to use the bathroom. I get out of bed passing the med bottles scattered across my room that I'm suppose to be taking and head to my closet. I throw on a hoodie and a pair of sweats heading downstairs.

"Your up? Are you doing better?" Ben asks signing to me. (In this both Ben and Aiden know ASL). " Yeah I'm doing alot better" "I told everyone you had a cold and that's why you haven't been in school" Ben explains. I nod a thanks to him and grab my backpack opening the front door for us to head to the bus. Ben grabs his bag and his notebook and walks with me. I open my backpack pulling out a joint and a lighter.

I offer the lighten joint to Ben but he declines like usual. "Fine more for me then" I say taking another hit before putting it out cause we are at the bus stop. I'm pulling out my headphones from my backpack when all of a sudden I hear a voice yell "AIDEN!" I look up just in time to see Ashlyn running over. Honestly the sight made me chuckle a little. "Where have you been, I've been messaging you!?" I glance over at Ben knowing he told me this morning that he told everyone I had a cold. "I forgot to tell her, sorry" He signs. "I had a cold sorry" I lied to Ashlyn who was staring at me with an annoyed face waiting for an answer. I don't like having to lie to her but it's for the better

The bus pulls up and we get in, going to our seats. Ben and I sit together while Ashlyn is in the seat in front of us. I put in my headphones and look out the window.

'I need some coffee right now. I hope Ashlyn doesn't try coming over later, she can't see my room like-' I'm intruppted from my thoughts when a workbook gets dropped on my lap. "fuck-" I mutter wincing from the sting on my wrists from the sudden weight. "That's the work you missed so you have it." I hear from the seat in front of me. I thank her.

"Do you have any spare bandages in your backpack?" I sign to Ben knowing I would need to put on new ones after what just happened. "Yeah here" He signed back, going into his bag to give them to me. I put them in my pocket and drift back into my thoughts.

(Time skip to where they are now at the school)

"I'll meet you at class, I need to go to the bathroom real quick" I tell Ben and Ashlyn while heading down the hall to the bathroom. Once I'm in the bathroom I put down my backpack and pull off my hoodie.

"Shit" I mutter seeing the condition of my arms. They're covered in blood and the bandages are coming off some. I rip the bandage off and throw them out and pull out the new ones from my pocket and wrap them around the four deep cuts on each of my arms. I throw my hoodie back on, put on my signature grin and head to class.

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