diary [total drama island] ✔

chapter ten

day twenty

cody kind of pissed me off today.

he would not shut up about this crush. something makes me think it's not actually gwen he likes, but someone else...

he behaves relatively normally around gwen, to be honest, and there have been minor slip ups. i hope he knows he can tell me anything, he doesn't have to keep secrets from me. we've always told each other everything, it doesn't have to change now.

cody would not shut up about his crush. "she's this, she's that" oh my god. but then again, my crushes aren't the same as his. i can't really understand that concept, so...

all i know is cody's been quite happy recently, and if that meant blabbering about his crush 24/7 then i'm here for it. most of the time if cody's upset then i'm upset. i almost have to depend on him to be happy, i don't know why.

"their eyes are so pretty," he said wistfully. "i can't describe it. when the sun hits it at a certain angle..."

"oh my god, do you ever shut up?" it was the middle of chemistry and i was copying notes down from the board but cody had his chin on his hand and was gazing at me. probably looking at the sun, because we were next to the window and not doing his work at all. 

"sorry," he said, "i just literally cannot get them off my mind."

"them being gwen?"

"yeah!" he paused a bit before he said it. okay so now i knew 100% he was lying about the identity of this 'crush'. especially because he referred to the crush as 'they'. were they having a gender crisis or something?

"whatever," i replied. "if it makes you feel any better, you can blab about them to me while i work. i'm only half listening, just a heads up."

cody happily grinned and nodded at that and started saying some stuff about their appearance. their eyes, hair, smooth ass skin...everything like that. it went on for a while and i couldn't help thinking that it was probably a really obsessive crush. he was messed up with infatuation. 

plus, how do you differentiate infatuation to love? being obsessive isn't love, it's loving them for their flaws. but either way, how do you describe it? it's different for everyone.

cody's face was pink in the light as he just kept talking. he looked majestic, as always, but i couldn't help but think, who the fuck is this crush?

a/n

aaaaaaaa i havent updated in so fucking long

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