Girlhood, lipgloss and stupid boys.

Chapter seven

I sit down next to Noah in his car. I try not to glance at Peter because I know he'll be pissed. Noah immediately starts driving. I have to put on some lipgloss but I'm still more comfortable with Noah than I am with Peter, right now. I hear a Taylor swift song come on and I'm tempted to sing along but I know Noah will make fun of me for that. I start to realise that my fears about what could happen with Noah are nothing like my fears of what might happen with Peter. I hear Noah start humming along to the song on the radio. "You a Taylor swift fan?" I ask in a teasing voice. "I mean like..a little." He confesses. "That's so.." I don't know what to say. At first I wanna say cute and then I wanna say attractive because it shows he has good taste and he's comfortable in his masculinity but that would be weird. "That's so cute! Me too." I say, after some time to think. Noah looks at me and smiles as he turns the volume up. Peter could never.

That thought means that I struggle to enjoy the rest of the car ride. Peter is gonna be fuming. What if he breaks up with me? What if he gets in another fight with Noah? "Relax, bumblebee..it's fine." Noah says, as if reading my mind. "He's gonna be so mad." I say. "And if he is you'll handle it, Brooke. You're strong enough to handle anything..you handled last night." He responds resting a hand on my own. "No I didn't. You handled last night." I say, in response. "Come on, bumblebee. Yeah I punched him but you dealt with it. And you were scared..and I know it's not my place to say but you deserve someone who never makes you afraid, Brooke." Noah says, squeezing my hand. It's a comforting gesture. I've never really thought about the kind of love that I deserve. I just took what I could get because I thought it was all I could ever get.

At lunch I sit with Rosie and Imogen. It feels like I haven't seen them in forever. I tell them everything. "That asshole!" Rosie yells. "I've got some pointy shoes and I can kick him right in the balls and then he won't be able to reproduce." Imogen says. I laugh a bit, though it is weird to listen to them talking shit about someone who I am with and I think I still love. "It would probably be the best thing for the world." Someone says from behind me. "Noah!" I exclaim. He sits down next to me. I take his sandwich out of my lunch. He takes it from me and looks in my lunch bag and frowns. "Have half of my sandwich." He says. "No. I made it for you." I reply. "And I'm very thankful for that but I'd be even more thankful if you just tried it." Noah says, holding out half of my sandwich. I take a bite into it and I really like it. Talking to my friends and not focusing on what I'm doing makes me remember that they aren't focusing on me either. So I eat that and some crisps too. And I still feel pretty after. And happier.

I walk out of the building with Rosie who's giggling about my science teacher falling over when I see Peter standing, waiting. I hope he isn't waiting for me but he obviously is. "Let's go to my car, Brooke." Rosie says, as soon as she sees him. "N-no..let me talk to him." I reply. "I'll be right here." She says. I'm scared. So incredibly scared. But I suck it up so I can talk to him. "Peter, you-" I begin but he interrupts me as usual. "I'm so sorry, Brooke. I know I've acted insane and angry and disgusting but I just..I just don't wanna lose you. You're so perfect and I could feel that I was losing you to Noah so I..overreacted. Can you forgive me?" He says, holding my hands in his own. It doesn't feel as comforting as when Noah does it. "Um..ok." I mumble. He smiles. "And stay away from Noah for me, please?" He says. "But-" u begin. He pull me closer to him. "Please? For me? The guy who loves you..?" He says. "Of course..I um..will stay away from him." He kisses me. The way he touches my butt makes my skin crawl.