Let Me Ruin Us

͙⁺˚*･༓☾Chapter Five☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

(Barely edited)
Soobin woke up with a massive headache. He yawned rubbing his eyes open. When he looked around he realized that this wasn't his room, or his bed. What even happened last night? He went to sit up but was weighed down. That's when he realized Yeonjun was lying on top of him, tucked under his soft grey sheets sleeping peacefully. Then it hit him, he started remembering little bits of last night. We fucked?!? What the fuck did I do?! That's when he realized they both were naked. He started freaking out. He couldn't remember everything just little pieces. But what he could remember is that he went onto Yeonjun. All the kisses and hickeys they'd left on each other. Yeonjun begging for him to go faster. It was all rushing in. It was amazing... but wrong, so wrong. He knew it was what he wanted but it was hardly concentual. He remembered the way they both smelled of alcohol. And he hates it was the first thing they did after not speaking for four days. Soobin gently slipped Yeonjun off him. He couldn't help but chuckle at the sight of Yeonjun drooling and his messy hair. Soobin re adjusted him his cheek was smushed against the pillow making his lips pout. He was so cute and he looked so peaceful. Regardless of what just happened, this was something Soobin had thought of a few times. What he looked like sleeping, he wish he had his phone he'd totally take a photo, but he didn't know where it went. He looked around the room at the mess of clothes, he found his boxers, his sweatpants and grabbed them as he walked out of Yeonjuns room quietly closing the door. He found his sweatshirt and picked it up as well. Soobin went to his room and grabbed a white shirt, and light grey pants. He quickly took a shower and brushed his teeth. Once he was done he went to get some meds to help with his headache, made some tea, and sat on the couch. Now what do I do? I mean how am I supposed to go about this? I fucked up... that's when he just decided he should wake him up and talk to him about it. He got up and walked into his room. Yeonjuns back was facing him, the blanket rising and falling with his breath. Soobin went over to his bed and sat on the edge scooting up closer to Yeonjuns face. He sat with Yeonjuns body near his legs. Soobin smiled at how beautiful he looked with the light shinning on him. He felt bad about waking him up he looked so peaceful. But he was afraid he'd run away again. Some of his hair was covering his eyes so Soobin used his pinky to move it out of his face. He felt Yeonjun flinch and immediately knew he was pretending to be asleep.

"Yeonjun, seriously?" He said in a soft manner. Yeonjun slowly opened his eyes and gave Soobin a shy look. It seemed he too remembered how shameless he was last night.

"Look I'm sorry about last night. I was drunk and wasn't thinking clearly. And from what I remember I kinda forced myself onto you. But I know that what I said before all that happened is true. Please don't avoid me again... I missed you a lot." Soobin spoke sincerely. He watched Yeonjuns face to see his reaction. He smiled up at him.

"It's alright, you kinda weren't the only one doing things, I'm at fault too." He paused his look softening with a bit of guilt.

"I'm sorry for avoiding you for so long. I was just a bit confused I guess. I don't know, it was so sudden that you wanted to fuck. And I thought it was weird that... I wanted to too. Nothing felt normal, I don't know." Yeonjun admitted. He shifted his weight under the covers. He was still tucked in like a little kid before bed. Then processed what Yeonjun said. He blushed a bit at the last part.

"I forgive you, I get it, honestly I feel like it was stupid to ask anything of you. I'm sorry about that." Soobin leaned against the window behind him cringing at himself. It made a "tunk" sound as he did so. 

"I don't regret it." Yeonjun spoke quickly.

"Having sex. It was... god I hate admitting this out loud." Yeonjun put his hands over his face in embarrassment. Soobin opened an eye and quirked a brow at him smirking a bit.

"It was really good... but don't feel that great about it because it's also my first time in a while."  Yeonjun mumbled as he hid his face under the covers from Soobin. Soobin chuckled.