Meet Selena (One-off Series #4)

Meet 9

NAALIMPUNGATAN ako ng maramdaman ko ang pagyakap sa akin ni mommy. It's already 6 in the evening at halos pitong oras na akong tulog simula nung makauwi ako.

"I miss you, sweetie." She happily spoke and I hugged her tight, then the tears in my eyes started to flow. Ang bigat pa rin kasi ng dibdib ko at para akong lalagnatin. Shit na baklang yun.

"Are you okay? Why are you crying? You look unwell," at sinapo niya ako sa noo habang hinimas-himas yung likod ko. Suddenly my tears stopped as I felt the warmth caresses of my mother.

"I'm fine, mom. Last night was a blast e-experience f-for me. I just miss you." I stutter as I lie. Yet, everything that happened between me and that gay was beyond ecstatic.

"Okay, I'm glad for you. Just stay here and I'll cook you your favorite miso soup." I smiled and nodded. I need to tell mom the real thing that happened, I can't keep everything as secret forever.

Sinubukan kong umupo mula sa pagkakahiga at sumakit lang yung ibaba ko, parang ngayon lang mas lumalala yung pananakit ng katawan ko.

Nabinat talaga ako kagabi. My cheeks are heated ng mag-flash sa isip ko yung mga nangyari, it feels like a dream. His touch lingers in my skin, I closed my eyes as I remembered how he sucked my tounge, kissed every inch of my body, and turned me as a woman---

"Drink this tea first," nagulantang ako sa pagpasok ni mommy. Why am I getting weirder and wilder?! No way. Dahan-dahan kong pinukpok yung ulo ko. Kasalanan talaga to ni accla, I'm a virgin for Pete's sake not until that gay deflowered me. Tanginers talaga.

"Are you alright?" She suspiciously looked at me. Ngumiti naman ako ng bahagya at dahan-dahang sinuklay ang buhok ko, mom witnessed me getting insane.

My night went okay at nagising ako kinaugmagahan na medyo okay na ang pakiramdam. I am glad na hindi na ako iika-ikang lumakad kasi hindi na masakit yung gitna ko.

I miss him. He fills my mind from last night until I woke up.

Umiling-iling ako at tinatagan ang sarili habang nakatingin sa salamin ng bathroom.

"Bading siya, he can't be the man for me. Argh--" napasigaw ako dahil sa frustration.

TAPOS na akong magbihis at nakita ko si mom and dad sa dining area. It's Sunday, family day at least.

"Good morning, Mom and Dad," at lumapit ako sa kanila para humalik sa cheeks. They smiled widely at me at niyakap ako ni dad.

"We miss you, anak. Kumain ka na, I cooked for our breakfast," my heart warmth nang makita ko sila na masayang naglalagay ng pagkain sa plate ko. What if I tell them that someone devirginized me? They might faint.

Oh no, I should not drop any bomb that will rage them.

Only during this day lang kami nagiging kompleto sa bahay, most of the days ay nasa ibang lungsod sila to manage our businesses. I should avoid ruining this day, I won't say a word about things that bugs me.

"After this we should prepare dahil pupunta tayo sa bahay ng kaibigan ko."

"Okay, dad." I obediently respond. Nakikinig lang ako sa pag-uusap nila but what caught my attention ay sa sumunod na sinabi ni dad. Here we go again.

"Dear, we already told you about the arranged marriage that we had planned a long time ago---"

"Hon, wag muna nating pag-usapan yan. I already said before na we will wait for the perfect time that the two of them meet and decide if they will accept it. Wholeheartedly." Mom emphasized the last word at tumingin sa akin na parang humihingi ng despinsa.

"I'm sorry, dear. I just want you to think about it as a positive catch and as early as now you need to think about it because we always want the best for you.---"

"It's fine, dad. I don't really mind it in a way that will stress me, I trust both of you."

Yan yung iniisip ko dati na if I will be arranged to marry someone, it's just fine with me. Yet, now, I am having second thoughts. His face pops in my mind, I am still hoping that I will see him again.

Maybe I am going to marry someone and not with Lavine. That gay's mere existence was just to give me the experiences I need. Right.

Natapos na kaming kumain at agad akong pumanhik sa kwarto para maghanda ng maisusuot. Mom told me that we will attend a formal dinner sa bahay ng kaibigan ni dad.

I guess that formal dinner is the moment that I will meet the person that my parents plan to marry in the future. I hope he won't like me, I hope he'll decline the idea of marrying me.

Ayoko talagang maikasal sa lalaking hindi ko man lang mahal. I want it to be Lavine. I know it's way too early to conclude but I am loving his presence.

Tears started to escape from my eyes. Why am I feeling this way? I bet it's just a phase. Love is complex, it's not something I can fathom.

I felt a sudden attachment towards him as if something was inside me just in our first encounter bound and affixed. The connection between us was real at that moment. Umiling-iling ako at nagsimula ng maghanap ng maisusuot.

That night was a mistake. Really a mistake, I should try to move forward.

As I was busy preparing what to wear, my phone rang and it's Letti who's calling. Agad ko itong sinagot and all I can hear from the other line was her high-pitched shrieked. Gosh.

"Oh, God. You answered it immediately, I'm so happy to hear your voice. I don't know what to do after I forgot to call you yesterday, I'm so sorry---" I cut her off.

"Let, calm down. I won't hang the call, kumalma ka. Breath in, breathe out." I heard her did what I said at kahit hindi ko siya nakikita ay alam kong nakapikit siya ngayon at humihinga ng malalim. HAHAHAH she's always like that when she's excited with something.

"Kalmado na 'ko, I am all ears to hear about what happened to your night after you left the party with that..." she trailed off at binulong ang kasunod niyang sinabi.

"Gay."

I know that she won't let me pass this moment hangga't hindi niya malalaman yung totoong mga nangyari. I'm torn between lying or telling her the truth. Ugh.

She's my best friend, we're peas in a pod and ever since ay palagi na naming sinasabi sa isa't-isa yung mga sikretong hindi namin kayang sabihin sa iba.

"It's a great night, sumama ako sa kaniya and we spend the night in his place. We did stargazing..." I stopped, I don't know if I can really tell her about it.

"And? Anong kasunod?" She seems waiting and in a hurry to know.

"His place was wonderful, it's so enchanting because he has a wide garden and a suite-like tree house---" I am trying to divert the topic but she's persistent to know the real thing.

"What happened after the two of you watch the stars?"

Fine, I'll tell her. She's the one that I can count on and maybe can give me an advice.

"We made out and..." I trailed off. My lips quiver and I don't know how to say it.

"We m-made out, m-made l-love and he did deflowered me, I swear I lost my inhibition---"

I heard a loud thud coming from the door being shut closed and I saw mom standing next to it, eyes almost popped out and mouth in an O-shape. She heard everything.

I immediately hung up the call and I was stunned not knowing what to do.