Forgotten memories

6- dreams and memories

⚡Jay's POV⚡-

I feel myself doze off a bit as I play with the slug in my hands, Zane was just sat observing me calmly as I feel my face tug a bit into a smile. I know that I am not really meant to but it feels right you know. Like I was meant to, that I am safe now, that I am home. Home... I never thought I  would ever use that weird word that people toss about when I go interrogate them and what these people say. As far as I am aware, I have no home, never have and never will. Right? My eyes grow droopy at the thought and I feel myself leaning back into the sofa. It is so comfy. So calming... They grow heavier and heavier till they close fully drifting me into a calming sleep, or so I think....

I lie in agony as I look at the wall of my cell, water drips from the top slowly.  Rats scurry by me as I shuffle out of the way quickly. It seems so familiar and so cold. Like a living nightmare of what I find myself in. Laughs are sounded up on the hull followed by old pirate rhymes and hymns that date back decades. I remove my hand from my eye. Blood. Dark red crimson blood dribbles down my hand in clumps. Why am I bleeding?! What sort of dream is this!
My face stings as it continues on flowing over and over down my face. I find myself trying to hold back tears as I rock back and forth trying to calm myself down. I am not here, this isn't real. He is gone and everyone is safe! It is just a nightmare Jay. He isn't going to hurt us again. I want to get out! Please let me out! Let me out! LET ME OUT! I struggle to breathe as the voices quieten down a bit to hear my cries of pain. Why! Why do I dream this all the time! This place! 
I hear a small hiss as someone opens the cell door quietly and slides over. He is a light neon green snake with yellow eyes wearing a pirate costume but unlike most he seems to be kinder. I see him lower next to me as I shuffle into a corner. "Hey I won'tss hurt youss! Lisssten I just want to bandage you up a bit and then I will leave!" He raises his hands and carefully passes me a slice of bread that he must of snuck from the kitchen or something. "Thank you..."
I see him smile between his fangs at me before carefully cleaning my eye. It stings like hell causing me to bite my lower lip to fight back my tears yet again. He seems to hesitate a bit as he dabs the rest of my face slowly making sure not to hurt me. What was his name? Clancee... That is it. Clancee the snake pirate. Unlike the rest in these dreams I feel like I can lie next to him and cry it all away. "There you goss! All betster!"  I find myself (or my dream self) forming a smile at him...  How nice...

The dream shifts a bit to a small hill filled with flowers and a glowing sunset over the horizon. The warmth beats onto my face as the pain becomes nothing but a distant memory that I am thankful I have forgotten. Next to me sits- Nya? The weird blue girl? She is wearing the most beautiful  blue and light pink dress with a dandelion in her hair like an accessory. I feel my face heat up as she turns and smiles at me with the most breathtaking smile I have ever seen. She looks so perfect under the glow of the golden sun rays of the sunsets. Oh my- I feel my heart race as she brushes the loose hair behind her here. "So how do I look?"
"You- Oh my- You look perfect!" She chuckles at me as I feel myself go bright red as I look down to the ground. Why on earth am I like this! Why! It was just a question! "Oh Jay... You are so adorable" 
"I-I am not! I am a very mature and scary guy!" She smirks and- She kisses me! She is kissing me! And I like it! I like it?!  Her lips are so soft and I feel my worries disappear. All I need to worry about is her and me. Us under the perfect evening. "My Yang" She stops kissing me and pushes my hair from my face with a glowing face and soft eyes. "I love you Jay Walker no matter what. I promise to always be here for you..."  I hug her tightly as she pats my back gently.... The dream fades once more...

I bolt up, sparks dance around my hands like blue rays of panic. What! How am I doing that! My- I look at my wrist. My bracelet! My bracelet is gone! They- They said I can never take it off! They said if I do they would- That I would break the code! What is going on! The electricity dances along the walls shocking the TV. It blows up a bit causing me to flinch and try to hold my hands away from me. No no no! Glass sits all along the floor as the electric crackles loudly. What am I doing! I feel my breath get caught in my throat as my eyes dart side to side desperately trying to look for any help.
I hear panicked footsteps run in as Nya and Lloyd stand in the doorway looking as if they have been slapped. "Jay calm down!" I cling to my legs bringing my knees to my chest as I struggle to breathe. No no no! I am done for! How am I doing this! Why am I doing this! Make it stop! I feel my eyes tear up as Nya walks over slowly and sits next to me. "Look at me please." I slowly look over and cry. How can she be so kind! I am a monster!
"Nya please... Help me! Please you promised me!" Her eyes widen as she slowly hugs me. "Breathe... In and out... In and out..." I do so as my heart steadies once more as I shuffle close to her once more. She rocks me slowly back and forth soothingly. She caresses my hair as I find myself crying into her. My tears soak into her clothes as she shrugs it off and continues holding me gently. Why? Why am I like this! "It's okay Jay I am here... You did nothing wrong I promise..."
Lloyd sits next to me also placing the blanket back onto me with a tired smile. His blonde hair is a mess and he is wearing fluffy pyjamas with a dragon on it. he woke up to help me? Why... Why do they care... "You remember the promise?..." Her eyes shimmer a bit like pools as I nod slowly. "I saw it... in a dream..." She chuckles with tears in her eyes. "Oh Jay... Oh my Jay... You remembered..."
I remembered....