🌹The 19z list (SUNSUN) & (JAYWON)🌹

16. fall out

jungwon pov:
when i woke up i groaned in pain , my back was killing me and so was my head.

"what happened last night?" i mumbled to myself as i looked around the unfamiliar room, but then i felt a small shuffle next to me, looking over i almost screamed when i spotted a broad back facing me, but i could tell by the undercut that it was

jay.

wait- what the fuck?!

how did i get here?!, i cant remember anything, my cheeks heat up when i realise that im naked in his bed.

i limp painfully out of the bed and fumble for my clothes on the floor, when i finished getting dressed i smile softly at the sleeping jay.

so...he does want me, the thought makes my stomach warm up in butterflies, with a shy smile i walked over to the bed and sat next to his sleeping body, stroking his hair in between my fingers, "im going now~" i spoke softly.

everything inside me wanted him to pull me back into his bed, hold me tightly, tell me that he does fancy me and wants to get to know me on a more serious level.

but he doesn't.

"close the door behind you on your way out" he grumbles, my smile drops, my heart ached, i tried my best not to let his words hurt me more than they already were.

h-hes just sleepy...surely...i-i mean why would he sleep with me if he didnt like me?, my smile returns to my face, "see you soon then~" i pecked his head and left.

When i got back to the apartment i was met with a fuming sunoo, his arms were crossed and his face was telling me that he was about to give me a whole lecture.

i without realising rolled my eye's and let out a heavy sigh, my head was hurting, my body ached and i was tired, last thing i need was a lecture from my roomate,.

"jungwon, where were you?"

"at jay's place" i answered plainly, kicking of my shoes and dropping my bag, "what?!, how?, why?" his brows jumped, "i dont know sunoo, maybe i was getting railed"

"whats with the sarcasm?"

"please sunoo lets talk later. my back hurts and so does my head, i want to sleep" i groaned a bit, moving to walk passed him, but he blocked my way.

"why would you sleep with him?" sunoo's question confused me.

"because i like him?" i stated the obvious already over this conversation.

"but does he like you?"

i was silenced

(SILENCED)

sunoo's words sounded so harsh, as if he was judging  me with that simple question.

"exactly, c'mon won, i thought you had more dignity than that, he took advantage of your feelin-"

"no he didn't!" i snapped, not wanting to accept that reality, we're both adults, i can sleep with who ever i want.

"why does it matter so much to you tho?, its my body, i can do what i want with who i want" i said

"jungwon!" he said my name sternly, "do you even remember the sex?, how you got there?"

i was stumped, i didnt know.

"jungwon im not trying to be mean but he took advantage of you, weather you want to accept that reality or not, that's how it is" he says before disappearing into his room.

i stood there, staring at where sunoo stood.

a tear left my eye but i still managed to smile.

"at least he wanted me...even if it's just once..."

but imagine doing it with a billie eilish song playing in the back~....