#21 (poem- i still love you [my poem])

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i still love you - by me :))

it is hard to miss someone 
when you no longer knew who they were
so
instead of mourning them
you mourn the understanding you used to share.

the sleepless nights texting each other
having deep conversations
making dark jokes 
talking about our interests
things that made us happy
more than anything
you were my top priority

until i wasn't yours anymore
i was suddenly no longer worth
staying alive for
because you tried leaving 
more than once
without any explanation
and no goodbyes.

because god forbid that i might be able to help,
or at least listen.
something that i have always done in the past.

i can't count the paragraphs i've sent,
the letters i've written,
and you can't even give me three words anymore?

i love you.

i still do.
and that's the problem.
i can't stop loving you.

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