*y/ns POV*
It's been 3 days and I'm bored out of my mind, I'm stuck in the same room with just me, at least one of them has come in each morning to give me my stupid pills, I feel nothing now, I miss the aching calming feeling of my stomach being empty to the point I could feel the water rush right down to the bottom of my stomach. I'm sick of getting force fed calories.
"Baby your awake" Alex says stroking my hair still waking up, I say nothing. "Guess what?" he says pulling me in tighter "what?" I mutter, I just want this tube out already, "I got the whole morning off so you and I can spend it together" he says grinning "awesome" I say leaning in for a kiss. He has been working really long hours in paediatrics these past few weeks but I'm glad I'm not alone with my stupid thoughts.
It's past 12 now and they all came in for their usual lunch. "How's the lunch y/n?" George jokes, ouch that hurt "George shut up" Izzy and Meredith yell at the exact same time, "how's uh surgery going" I ask breaking the awkward silence "OOH I get to do a whole valve replacement by myself" Cristina brags I cheer for her, "Derek's letting me scrub in on a brain tumour removal" Meredith answers happily, "What you guys are getting surgeries" George groans and we all laugh. I miss surgery I wish I wasn't like this, I just want to rip the tube out and be able to eat without analysing it's calories and how many sit-ups or steps I need to burn it off. "Have they said anything about me coming back to work yet?" I ask and they all go silent.
*Meredith's POV*
I look at the others wondering if we should tell her, she's got a long road ahead and I don't want to tell her just yet, Izzy just gives me a small nod, I reach for her hand "Y/n, it's only been 3 days since you had your surgery after you collapsed right now we're just trying to focus on keeping you healthy and alive" I say mostly avoiding the question "I am healthy and stable I'm fine to go back to work though" she argues. "Yes you are and that's good and we want to make sure this doesn't happen again so we just have to wait a little ok?" She nods slowly. "Look we've got to get back to patients" I say as Cristina, Izzy and George just got paged "but I promise I'll come back tonight before I go home ok?" I say squeezing her hand.
*time skip*
"You paged?" I ask knocking on Dereks door, "yeah, I think I found a way to help her" "wait really?" I ask shocked. "She was asking about coming back today" I say as he's pulling out his research, "we both know she's not coming back anytime soon even if this treatment works" he says "well what have you come up with?" I ask as he lays out the last sheet of paper.
"So there have been a few studies done where in some anorexia nervosa patients that have been living with this illness typically 5 years or longer, have a developed tissue almost resembling tumours. These areas are benign but is shown to have a part in the anorexic thoughts and actions of the patient. However it's not a cure. We can go in laparoscopically and use a laser to destroy this tissue." He says "I love you and I love your brain" I say as he kisses me. "We just need to pitch it too the chief and then y/n" he says in excitement.
"Wait but we don't actually know how long y/Ns had this for right?" I say concerned she might not be able to have the surgery "we should talk" he says siting me down next to him.
*Dereks POV*
Meredith needs to know, "I haven't told anyone this before" "ever?" She whispers I shake my head. "When I was a second year intern we got a 15 year old girl come into the ER, she was bruised and cut, extremely thin, I still haven't seen anyone that thin. She was in early heart failure and was struggling to breathe, low blood pressure, everything was failing. I had to go get her fluids and call a social worker, when I got back she was scared and thought defending herself, I got punched in the face, seconds after she coded and they spent a good 20 minutes reviving her, she was in the hospital pshyc ward for 2 months before she was released" I said, pain in my voice, "it was y/n Meredith".
