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introduction + about me

Hi, I'm assuming you clicked on the story cuz you were curious about me, yes? No? Well, maybe

Before you read this, I would recommend reading the description in order to get a more accurate thing of me I guess

Quick warning, this may include sensitive subjects, such as Self die, depression, and possibly others IDK

You might know me as the author of The Missing Stitch, one of my most popular stories, as well as the author of a few others

My online name is Static or Smiley, But for the stories that are going to be made, we might just call me G for privacy reasons

In my recent years, I've always been more of a quiet kid, sometimes speaking up in class, Sometimes joining in the conversation with my friends, and so on and so forth

And if you've read my description for the story, you might know that my mental health isn't really in the best shape, but thankfully, it's not in the worst either

I decided to make this story so that I can give you my experiences with mental health and having to urge to do it, iykyk (If you know you know)

I'm also going to be talking about my suggestions with keeping yourself from giving into that urge, so this story is mainly going to be about mental health and That kind of stuff

If I'm honest, I thought about it a few times but never planned out any things to actually do it, like I said, if you know you know

I've always had negative thoughts about myself, specifically thinking, "what if I'm too annoying?" , or "Why did I do that?", especially thinking that I'm not good enough for.. Well, anyone, but that is a completely different story

Where I got these thoughts, I have no clue, I never really knew where they came from, or where they are going in the future

I'm working on getting my mental health in a better shape than it was before, and so far, I'm genuinely not sure if it's better or still the same

I do have a couple of negative thoughts everyday, and these are the ones that occur often

"You're not good enough for them, you will never be good enough for them"

"You're probably going to disappoint them all anyway, so why even try?"

"That looks terrible, there is no way you're ever going to become an artist / author, all you're going to be is a failure"

"Just give up already, Why even bother when no one is going to acknowledge or like it?"

... I know, those thoughts bring me down sometimes, but I do my best to ignore it,

My parents brought me to a therapist, at least I think, and she told my father that I might have mild depression, which I am kind of surprised-

But I guess it does make sense, considering that two family members take antidepressants, I'm not sure if any others, those are just the two I know of

I guess it runs in the genetics?

I never really considered myself to be depressed, neither did anyone else I think, after all, I usually see myself to have a chill and happy attitude most of the time

But I do have some things that stress me out and get the bad thoughts in there

Especially the thought that I will be a failure to everyone I love, which I hope I don't

But I've been learning to take care of those thoughts, just to make them a bit better, learning my safety plan for that kind of stuff

Which include writing stories and making art, which are my two creative outlets

Like I said in the description, they've always been a creative outlet to me, and what I probably didn't mention, is that It's also a way that I can let out my emotions without worrying others (hopefully)

But enough of my rambling, I'll stop writing here so you can go back to Doom scrolling on YouTube / TikTok or something you we're doing before-

Anyway, bye my oddities ❤️