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Useless and Disappointing

Useless and disappointing

that's how I feel...

Why, you may ask?

Expectations

It's the end of the first quarter, and I feel burnt out

I don't have all my assignments turned in either

I have detention on thursday for getting too many debits

I can't go to DND till Christmas, and if I don't have my grades top notch then I cant go the rest of the school year

my parents are forcing me to do my work in the living room

I feel like I have next to no time to myself

I just want to take a real break

but at this point, it feels like I cant

my mental health has been deteriorating also, and going to glory reins isnt enough at this point

it feels like grades are just what makes up my worth now, if they aren't good enough, then i'm not good enough

I feel worthless

I feel like the only people that care are my art teacher and the librarian

I know my parents only want to help, but... to be honest, they aren't helping,

I know I sound like an edgy teen, but at this day and age, they don't understand

I know they have work, not much time for themselves

my brother does to

but I cant really have time to myself either because of the constant eight of stress and pressure being put on me

I feel like I'm going to snap sometime soon

I feel like I'm going to have an extremely embarrassing day where I'm going to crack under pressure and begin crying just because I cant handle the pressure

I don't want to do this anymore

my only comfort that I can rely on is writing my stories and drawing

I hate this...