Panic

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Lily POV:

TW: Mentions of panic attacks

I wake up in a horrible mood, I don't know why I'm in a horrible mood but I am. I look at the time and see it's 9AM and class starts at 9:30AM so in all I decide to skip.

Alex had left earlier in the day around 6:30 AM because a client had an emergency and problems with a divorce case. Of course he left me a note and breakfast before he left and I ate it but I was just in a horrible mood.

I suddenly felt something wet roll down my cheek, almost like a tear drop and then more and more kept falling down until I literally was sobbing. I had to calm myself down before I had a severe panic attack but I couldn't, I just kept sobbing. I didn't even know why I was crying and then my breathing got quicker and faster

"breathe, breathe. Stop stop stop STOP! I need to breathe" I kept telling myself, in the end I grabbed my phone and called Alex since he always knew how to calm me down.

Ring... Ring...Ring... "This is Alex I can't come to the phone right n-

I ringed his phone again, and again, and again at this point my sobbing turned into a panic attack since I couldn't get any air. I ringed one last time and it went for three to four times and then straight to voicemail.

At this point my hands started to shake really badly, I couldn't breathe I rushed to the bed so that if I passed out I had somewhere to land softly. I kept hyperventilating and not being able to breathe I felt like my world was frozen.

It's like time froze and I'm the only one alive and the oxygen running low. I kept trying to calm myself down but nothing helped, my eyes were probably red and swollen by now, my nose filled with snot, and my mouth dry from trying to breathe.

I slowly felt the world spinning, I tried to call Alex one more time and it went to voicemail. I broke down again in sobs, I don't even know what's causing this stupid panic attack. I can't breathe, I can't breathe, I can't breathe

I CANT FUCKING BREATHE

the world is spinning more and more until I felt my body and my mind let go. All I felt is me hitting the soft bed and passing out.

Alex POV:

That meeting was the most longest meeting of my life. As soon as I arrived to the office my secretary took all my stuff and rushed me into the meeting.

The client wasn't so nice, his wife decided to keep the child and he did not take that well. I had to explain multiple terms and sit and listen to that bastard. It got so bad that I had to sternly yell at him that "if you aren't happy you can leave and take your business somewhere because I don't have time to deal with your bullshit" now I know it sounds rude and disrespectful but I had to leave my beautiful soon to be fiancé.

I entered my secluded main office, it was on the top floor since I'm the best and I didn't want people to ruin my mood every ten seconds.

I finally got to check my phone and saw 35 missed call from My Love💋❤️. I immediately called back and no answer straight to answer. I called again and it went straight to voicemail. I started to get really worried I called her once more and nothing. I grabbed my keys and my phone trying to call her again while sprinting to my car.

She still hasn't answered and I'm less then 10 minutes from the house, at this point I speed through the highway and park quickly into the parking lot. She still hasn't answered, she still hasn't answered, where is she, is she okay, why isn't she answering?

I ran through the apartment complex and skipped the elevator and took the stairs to get there quicker. I knocked on our door and no answer, this is when I got really worried. I opened and saw the house was how I left it and Lily's stuff was all still here so she had to be inside.

"Lily, honey IM HOME!" I yell at, and I get absolute no response.

"Lily where are you, are you ok?" I ask concerned and again no response.

I look through every room and then go to our master bedroom and in there I see her seemingly asleep. I was so relieved she was okay but why the fuck did she call me so many times. She isn't in trouble at all, I'm going to have to punish her later.

Before I leave I go up to her and put a blanket in her until I stop all my actions. Her face is all pale, like almost paper pale. Her eyes and under eye bags are red and purple they also look like they're really swollen. Her arms are filled with scratches and her lip is all bloodied and bruised probably from her biting on it.

I grab her almost lifeless body and pull her into my lap, she's breathing but very shallow breaths. They sound harsh, shallow, and very slow paced. Her heart is beating at half more the it should be. I get really worried and concerned so I steadily try to wake her up, I shake her, whisper in her ear, but no response.

I started to panic majority usually her panic attacks are severe if she doesn't get them under control but this was way different. Then I felt her move, stir a little bit until she opened one of her eyes BARELY may I add. My heart shattered when I saw her blood red eyes, I held her tightly and kept whispering sorry into her ear.

Lily's POV:

I thought I died, like for real I thought I was with Jesus. I thought I saw the light and all, like my pulse just stopped and I just descended to heaven but no I'm still on earth like what the fuck... like I accepted it when I was barely breathing but yk I'm still alive.

Anyway I was stirred awake when I felt two warm hands go on my waist and prop me up against someone's chest. I then realized it was Alex when he started to whisper "please wake up baby, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" he kept repeating that. I opened one eye barely especially with all the tear crust built up, and saw Alex breakdown completely and keep whispering sorry's. He held me so tightly that I thought I will pass out again because of the lack of oxygen.

"C-c-can't breathe there bud-d-y" I said croakily

"Oh my baby, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry I didn't answer my phone I'm so sorry I didn't come sooner, I'm sorry baby I'm so sorry Lily" he says almost pleading me, he finally released me and I saw multiple tears run down his face.

"It's okay, it's okay —" I said quietly

"It's not though I should've brought my phone with me then I could've heard your calls IM SO SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE IM SORRY" he keeps saying.

I quietly sigh, bring my finger under his chin and lift his head. I look at him in the eyes silently telling him it's okay and I forgive him.

He wraps his hands around my waist and brings me to him. We flip on the bed and just cuddle together for a few minutes until I get a strong urge to pee cause yk I was a bit knocked out.

I quietly sat up and saw Alex asleep I kissed his head and headed to the bathroom. I did my business and looked in the mirror. I definitely looked interesting: my eyes were still a bit swollen, there was bruises on my thighs from hitting myself by instinct when I panic, I see scratch marks in my arms. But in all I look hot

I brush out my hair and blow myself a kiss, forgetting the person I was a few hours ago and went back into the bedroom seeing the bed ready for sleep, water and a few snacks on the table, and Kub Scouts my fav YouTuber right now on the TV. I slowly sat down waiting for Alex where he was.

"Alright baby, we are going to have a chill night with a lot of snacks, your not going to school for at least 4 days, and I called off work for a few days. I'm going to take care of you every way I can my beautiful girl." He says sweetly as he walks up to me with millions of snacks from the cupboard. He then kisses my head and turns on the video.

The rest of the night we stayed cuddled up laughing, watching videos, and enjoying each others company.

A/N: Hey there lovelies, omg finally got this chapter out I am slacking again I'm so sorry but I had recently a few dance competitions but two chapters are in the making so yk be ready for those. vote or don't idk, but comment down what you want me to do for the next few chapters💗

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