I Should've Hugged You The Last Time I Saw You

Today

I repeatedly reminded myself, "I'm not better."
I have not improved.
It has all been an illusion all along.
I'm responsible for everything.

I choose an ending that would rather not hurt me much,
Fabricated each memories to suit my healing,
I believed that I was making progress.
I believed that I had conquered my fragility.

However, I really don't
These places still exist.
Thus, as I hurt,
It will never stop reminding me how foolish I am.

No, it wasn't reciprocal.
No, I was the only one who concurred.
No, I was the only one haunted.
No, this isn't all a coincidence.