Staring At the Edge of the World - An Austin Carlile love story

Chapter Six - Up and Away

We decided on watching Star Wars and eating snacks for the day. Alan and Julie were all over each other, while Austin and I actually watched the movie. Suddenly Austin grabbed my hand, and dragged me outside the apartment in the hallway.

“What the hell Austin? What are we doing out here?” I asked as we got outside. I now realized his palms were sweating. And now that he haven’t let go of my hand. I quickly let of his hand; I was still convinced that he had a girlfriend.

“Why won’t you talk to me?” Damn, he noticed.  I couldn’t tell him why, he would think I was weird and stalking. I could hear the cars down on the street; it was a rather busy Sunday.

“I don’t know Austin; I’ve just been a bit tired lately.” I lied. I hate lying, especially when people use the excuse “I only did it so I wouldn’t hurt you with the truth.” Why not get it other with? I sound like such a hypocrite.

“I don’t believe you.” He said, looking deeply into my eyes. I didn’t like it; it felt like he was staring into my soul and now knows every single thing about me.

“What could possibly be wrong? My best friend is moving over here with me, and I’m standing with one of the most gorgeous men in the wor…” I stopped myself mid-sentence. I did not say that! When are you going to learn to shut your mouth Kat!?

“Wait. You think I’m gorgeous?” Austin asked. His cheeks were getting light-pinky.

“I mean yeah, but it’s not like I’m trying to…” Bam, his lips were on mine. Not forcefully but jet not soft. It was perfect. He cupped my face and deepened the kiss. I found myself kissing him back. But then I remembered he had a girlfriend. I pushed him away, looking angrily at him.

“Austin, it’s not that I didn’t enjoy that, I did, but I don’t think your girlfriend would like the fact that you go around and kiss other girls. “ I said, being slightly confused, with all the adrenalin rushing through my body.

“Girlfriend? What are you talking about Kat? I don’t have a girlfriend; who told you that?”

Oh god… My cheeks were burning by embarrassment.

“No one. It’s just that when I saw you this morning, you were smiling at your phone as if you read something personal you know like… God, I most sound so stupid!” I was looking at the ground because I didn’t want to show my face. Austin chuckled and I quickly lifted my head to see him standing close to me… He drew me into his embrace, and just held me there, almost like he didn’t want to let me go.

“Kat I need to tell you something.” I looked up at him, that didn’t sound good.  

“Austin, can we please go in my bedroom. It’s pretty chilly.” I asked.

“Yeah, of course.” He took my hand and led me inside my apartment again. Julie and Alan had fallen asleep. As we got inside my bedroom, he sat me down on my bed. He looked at me with an almost blank face. This must be very serious. It was almost like he was nervous.

“Look Julie, you probably don’t know who I am. Because if you did, you wouldn’t act like you did with around me. You remember yesterday, at the record store?” I nodded looking him deep in the eyes. At the store was a bus, and that’s all I remember, I didn’t exactly pay attention.

“That bus?” I asked.

“Yeah, It’s mine. Well not like mine, but I live in that bus. And I will for the next two months. I’m in the band Of Mice & Men, and we’re currently on tour.” I couldn’t speak. Why? This is the first guy I’ve had feelings for who actually treated me good. I didn’t want him to leave, I didn’t want him to go away and forget me. It was easy to forget me, because we hardly knew each other. He would forget me, but I could never forget him.

“But then I guess this is goodbye.” I said not looking at him, hiding the tears forming in my eyes.

“No wait. God Kat, why do you always assume so many things before finding out what is really going on?” He put his hands on my chin lifting it so he could look into my eyes. “I wanted to ask you, if you wanted to come with me? I really want to get to know you; you’re a person who I can see myself with.” He said.

My whole face lit up. But them it became a frown. I couldn’t just leave my job and my life here. But then again, what life? It was like everything was on autopilot; I got up in the morning, went to work, got home late eating cardboard-box-food, and going to bed. Okay, let’s do this then.

“Okay,” I said

“Wait what!? You’re coming with me?” I nodded and once again he crashed his lips onto mine. This time, a little more forcefully as if to say “Thank you”. I felt him liking my lower lip, but I denied him entrance. I pulled away and gave him a slight smile. Our foreheads where touching, while he rested his hand on my neck.

“Thank you. It will be two months you’ll never forget.” He said, still smiling like a little boy. He got up and I followed him close by down the hall and into the living room.

{A/N}

Hi guys! Sorry for the short update, and it's probably shitty and everything. I'm posting an update tomorrow because I have the day off. I actually have a lot of free time the next week, because of the fucked up teachers here. So expect tons of updates soon!

XoXo Kat ^.^