Staring At the Edge of the World - An Austin Carlile love story

Chapter Seventeen - Lost

I woke up in the same bunk as Phil and silently rolled out. I got some clothes from my suitcase and went to the bathroom for a shower. While in the shower the sudden urge to cut suddenly flooded over me. I didn’t have a reason my body just missed the pain I guess. I fought the feeling and stepped out drying myself. I threw on some black skinnies and a Memphis May Fire tank-top. I went out to the kitchen and made a fresh pot. As soon as the coffee was done I grabbed a cup and walked outside. I kept thinking of Austin. How he’s lying in the hospital all alone and stressing about his legs. I emptied my cup and went back inside. I noticed that someone was in the bathroom and waited for the person to come out so I’d have someone to talk to. Phil came out from the bathroom and greeted me with a ‘good morning’ I greeted him back and he poured a cup of coffee. He took a seat at my side and sipped his coffee.

“So I guess you’re thinking of Austin?” He broke the silence we’d shared for a couple of minutes.

“Of course” I said taking a hand through my hair. “It’s just that he’s all alone in that cold white hospital and probably being stressed with his legs. Can we please visit him today?” I asked looking hopefully at him while turning my body so I could face him.

“Yeah sure” He said with a smile “Wanna wake the others and go?”

“No I thought it could be just the two of us; I don’t want to stress him more than he already is”

“I see your point. Let’s go then” I rose from my seat and out of the bus, Phil following close by. I took the driver’s seat and Phil the passenger’s and we headed off to the hospital.

I parked the car in the underground parking lot, and we got inside. I told the nurse at the desk who I was, and she let us in. I almost ran down to Austin’s room and as soon as I entered the room I wish I hadn’t. Leaning over Austin’s body was this perfect blond girl. She was wearing a white see-through button-down with a black bra underneath and a pair of jeans. The whole leaning part wasn’t the worst thing no; the worst thing was that they were kissing. Tears immediately formed in my eye and I stormed off.

“What’s wrong?” Phil yelled after me, but I didn’t stop. I kept running even after I’d left the hospital, I didn’t know were my legs just sort of carried me away.

How could he do this to me? We were fucking engaged! Who was that bitch anyway?

I had so many questions but I didn't stop running. At some point it had started to rain, and I looked up to see nothing familiar. Shit, I'm lost. I sat down on a nearby bench and pulled out my phone. I pressed the home-button but nothing happened.

"You've got to be kidding me" I mumbled to myself as I shoved it back in my pocket. There weren’t many people out but I found a girl at about my age who I'd ask for directions. I didn't even care about how I looked; all I wanted was to go back to the bus and pack.

"Excuse me!" I yelled at her running over to her "I was wondering if you could tell me how to get to Warfield Theater? I'm sort of lost and I've never been to San Francisco before" I ended with a laugh.

"Yeah sure! You know I was actually on my way over there so how about I walk you there huh?"

"That sounds great!" It turned out that her name was Mary and she was a huge Of Mice & Men fan.

"Okay don't go yell this out to everyone but I'm actually dating their guitarist" I felt my stomach tie in a knot. She was dating Alan?

"You're dating Alan?" I asked.

"No no! I'm dating Phil" I let out the breath that I was apparently holding and relaxed.

"So you're the one who's dating Phil!" I stated.

"You talk about him like you know him" She said looking confused at me.

"Oh yeah, I'm Austin's, soon to be ex, fiancé" I said.

"Wait Austin's engaged? God why haven't Phil told me anything! Sorry to be pushing, but why're you breaking up?" I took a deep breath; I couldn't even think about it without breaking down.

"A few weeks ago Austin and I were in a car accident; we'd been in a coma until recently. The hospital send me home yesterday because I was fine; but Austin lost his ability to walk and had a surgery, so he's still in there. Just before I met you I was visiting him. Well I didn't quite get to that, because just as I entered his room I saw him kissing some girl I didn't know. I stormed off, got lost, and then I met you"

"Wow what douche! But maybe you should hear the guy out before you do anything rational, like I almost left Phil because Austin's ex-wife kissed him; I later found out that she had come on to him, and that Phil hadn't done anything. Sorry to ask, but what did she look like?"

"She was blond, that's all I can tell you because they were sucking each other's faces off." That sounds much like Gielle, Austin's ex-wife. She's a bitch and would do anything to get him back." I jolted to a stop.

"So you're saying that Austin's inocent?"

"Most likely yeah" I suddenly got really happy. Austin might have not cheated on me. We'd reached the venue and I suddenly remembered that I'd left Phil at the hospital.

"By the way. Phil isn't going to be in there. I sort of left him at the hospital"

She laughed.

"That's all right! Then we have more time to talk" She smiled at me and we entered the bus.

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I'm so f*****g sorry that I haven't updated lately! I've had the biggest writers block, I still do actually as you can see the quality isn't good. I'm going on holiday, and my mom hasn't planned how long we'll be gone... I won't have any Internet, but I will bring my laptop so I can write updates for you guys! Also, this fic has hit 1.000 reads! That's incredible! Especially when you consider the fact that I made the first plot right before I fell a sleep one night! Thank you!! I won't be ending this fic any time soon, because I have big plans, and I can't quite put it in now! So yeah, I hope you like it, and I'll see you guys soon! Bye!