Staring At the Edge of the World - An Austin Carlile love story

Chapter Ten - Finally Home

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Kat’s POV

I woke up in my hospital bed and looked out the window; it was a beautiful day. I couldn’t help but smile. I thought about yesterday; and how much I wanted to be alone with Austin. I was a bit shocked when he told me he loved me. Was it a bit too early? I didn’t get to think more of it, because my doctor came in.

“So Katelynn, I’m just going to do some tests on you and then we’re going to talk about why you did it.”

My stomach flipped at the thought of going into treatment. I haven’t tried to commit suicide before, and now that I have Austin I wouldn’t try it again anytime soon. The doctor took a blood sample and checked my blood pressure and took a seat by my bed just after handing over the sample to a nurse.

“Katelynn, I’m not only a doctor; I also help suicidal people to get the right help they need. Have you ever tried to commit suicide before?” She asked looking at me dead-serious. I shook my head and felt the tears starting to form.

She sighed. “Then what made you do it?” I was afraid of talking because my voice might crack. I took a deep breath before opening my mouth; I shut it again because I just couldn’t form any words. Just the thought of the tweets and all the hate was too much. I took another deep breath and grew the balls to tell her.

“Austin and I have begun hanging out lately; and right now I’m on tour with him and his band. We wanted to get to know each other before getting into a relationship. But some Fangirls took some pictures of me and Austin; and now they’re everywhere on the Internet. One day my friend Julie told me to check my Twitter, I have no idea how they found me but they did. And then came all the hate-messages; about how ugly and fat I am and how Austin deserved so much better.” I was crying and sobbing hard and my voice was cracking multiple times.

I continued. “And I began realizing that they were right and I just couldn’t take anymore everyone was better off without me.”

I took a deep breath and looked down on my bed. I heard someone clear their throat and I immediately shot my head at the door. I saw Austin standing there with sorrow in his eyes; he came over to my bed and bended down and rested his forehead on mine. He softly pecked my lips.

“Whatever those girls told you was a lie; you’re perfect and I couldn’t ask you to change. I love you Katelynn just as you are, and don’t ever change yourself.” A small tear escaped his eye; I simply nodded and gave him a kiss. An electric spark flew from my lips and through my whole body; I don’t think any other man could make me feel like this.

“You know what? I really don’t think you need any treatment as long as you have a boyfriend like Austin. He really treats you like you deserve and you should cherish that. You told me you were on tour, so if you ever get thoughts like that again tell someone and talk it out; if it’s really bad contact a doctor. Okay?” She said.

“Yes, I promise; can I go home now?” I asked looking at her and she nodded with a smile. I squealed a bit and jumped out of the bed with my clothes in my hands; I ran to the bathroom and got dressed. As I left the bathroom Austin was waiting for me and I ran over to him hugging him. This was the first real hug I had given him in four days. I spun me around and I giggled; it felt so good to be in his arms again. We left the hospital and got back to the bus.

“Hi guys!” I said as I climbed the stairs. As soon as I showed my face Alan came running from the back of the bus and collided his body with mine in an embrace; he was soon followed by Phil, Tino, Aaron and Julie.

“You’re back! We’re so glad to see you!” I couldn’t here who said it because of all the people crushing me.

“Guys!!! You’re chocking me!!” I shouted from inside the massive group hug. I could only just see Austin and he just stood there with a stupid grin on his face.

“Austin! Help meeeeee!!!!” I shouted at him.

“Okay guys, let her breath! I don’t want you to break my girl on her first day out of the hospital! I don’t want her back in there!”

They finally split up the group hug so I could breathe; Austin came over and gave me a hug.

“It feels so good having you back here; I missed you.” Austin said and kissed the top of my hair.

“I missed you too. Wanna go watch a movie?” I asked.

“Yeah sure, see you in my bunk I have to use the bathroom.” I nodded and walked into the bunk area and climbed into Austin’s bunk. I decided on ‘Monsters Inc.’ because it was one of my favorite Disney movies. I heard Austin’s footsteps outside the bunk and decided on hiding under the covers.

“Wait, where’s my babe?” Austin said confused. I knew that he knew that I was there; but it was cute and cheesy and just what I needed. He started ruffling the duvet and I peeked up my face, giggling like a fool.

“There you are! I was scared for a minute” Austin said sarcastically. “So, what are we watching?” He asked while positioning himself in the bunk.

“Monsters Inc.” I said with a grin on my face. Austin chuckled a bit and took me in his arms while resting his chin on the top of my head. I was completely consumed by the movie when Austin broke the silence between us.

“You know what those girls told you aren’t true, right?” Austin asked looking down at me. Looked up at him with a sad expression on my face and shook my head. I did believe what they told me was right; I just couldn’t help it. I wasn’t as self-confident as I was when I was younger; I had become one of those girls who just couldn’t realize how beautiful they were.

“Kat, you know I love you; I just need to show you how beautiful you are. Because damn girl, you’re the finest piece of meat I’ve ever seen.” He said in a bad fake ghetto voice. I hid him playfully because he called me a piece of meat, but chuckled because of the funny accent. I snuggled into his chest and listened to his heat beat.

“You actually never told me why you’re on heart medication.” I said in a low voice.

“I had an open heart surgery two years ago; it was the same disease which took away my mother when I was seventeen.” He finished the sentence almost inaudibly. I didn’t know what to say; I was shocked. He had lost his mother in such a young age; and I could tell that it was still killing him inside. I couldn’t imagine what it would feel like if I lost my mother. I loved her so much that I couldn’t handle the thought of her being gone.

“I’m so sorry to hear that Austin. I honestly have no idea what to say.” I said while hugging him tightly to me; I could feel a tear landing in my shoulder and I hugged him closer if that was even possible.  We held that position for what seemed like hours before Austin broke the silence.

“I just miss her so much. She was the only one to believe in me; and when she died I feared that I might not live much longer because of my heart condition.” He sobbed into my shoulder while I cooed soothing noises in the try of calming him down.

“Austin, I’m never going to leave you; and I believe that your heart is stronger than ever. If you ever need to talk I’ll always be there.” He nodded and I could feel he had gotten tired from all the crying I shifted my position so that we both lay down. I fell asleep thinking Austin needed me more than ever.