Love letters for Nobody

I want you badly

It's hard to explain how you make me feel.

The angst inside my bones before we meet

To wake up not knowing what is real,

But while in your arms feeling so complete.

Even as I write, I still miss your heat,

Those doe eyes and how you took me madly!

I don't why that I try being discrete,

I should just write that I want you badly

Finding ways to subject you to terror,

Is it bad if that act excites me too?

Finding such a kink seems ever more rarer

When I've gone trying to meet someone new.

So then it feels like no other will do

If the throttling urge does emerge in lust.

So then how blessed are we, me and you

Knowing someone with a knife we can trust?

Making me feel ever more like a creep

In the different ways you fill my mind.

So preoccupied at night I don't sleep

Thinking of ways to put you in a bind. 

A helpless damsel in the crypt confined

Whose flesh is found to be so delicious

Yet not afraid to bite my neck in kind.

Thoughts like these always make me ambitious

Caressing the marks before they retreat,

but any more you'll give I'll take gladly.

Yet writing of this love feels bittersweet

So Ill just write that I want you badly