he's a mess, but he's all i want || spider white

confessions of the dickhead.

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🎧- i want you in my room – carly rae jepsen

When Quinni and Amelia hopped off the table, Ant walked away, Spider watched Amelia for a little, deciding to go and see what Ant was doing, he found him sitting on an inflatable couch downstairs.

"What's wrong with you?" Spider asked, seeing Ant looked a little sad.

"Girl troubles or whatever." Ant mumbled, taking a sip of his drink.

"Yeah, I feel that." Spider replied, nodding his head, looking off into the distance.

"I've been trying to prove to... this girl, that I can be friends with her without wanting to hook up, at first I didn't, it was sick having her as a mate, but now I can't say anything or she's gonna think I was trying to hook up with her this whole time." Ant explained, Spider listened to him and nodded his head.

"That's brutal." Spider said, still nodding his head, he was deep in thought about Amelia, slowly realising she was right about everything, that he was bad at communication.

"Guess it's like Voss says, can't let girls mess with our heads." Ant said, taking another sip of his drink.

"Yeah, but what if that's bullshit though? Why don't we just lay it all on the line? Tell them how we feel?" Spider said, looking over to Ant with a questioning look.

"What, like with our words?" Ant asked, looking confused.

"Yeah, that's right, why not?" Spider replied, shrugging his shoulders.

"Why the fuck not?" Ant said, shaking his head, sitting up.

"Why don't we just come out and tell them what we want?" Spider added, slapping Ant's arm.

"Shit, yeah like radical honesty, bro." Ant replied, looking over to Spider, raising his eyebrows.

"Yes, dude, like radical honesty!" Spider called out, shaking Ant's shoulder, hyping him up.

"Yeah, I'm gonna do it, thanks man." Ant said, chugging the rest on his drink and standing up.

"Proud of you." Spider finished, slapping Ant's back as he walked away, Spider looked forward and nodded his head, trying to hype himself up, that's when he saw Amelia walk past.

Spider stood up, chugged the rest of his drink, crushing it in his hand and throwing it behind him, he breathed in deep, preparing himself to talk to Amelia, he looked around the cars, trying to find her. Spider called out her name, he couldn't see her so he was hoping she would come and find him.

"Raaaa!" Amelia screamed, jumping out from behind a car and scaring the shit out of Spider, she burst out laughing, holding her stomach and leaning over as Spider screamed back, leaning against the car.

"You scared the fuck out of me!" Spider breathed, laughing with Amelia.

"Aw, I heard people yelling at you gives you a boner?" Amelia joked, pushing him against the car, leaning up and kissing him, Spider's hands went to her hips pulling her even closer to him, Amelia breathed deep and ran her hands under his shirt.

"Wait, wait, um, I wanna talk to you about something." Spider stopped her, Amelia looked up at him and nodded her head. "I've been wanting to kiss you all night, and all day at school too."

"Well, get on with it then." Amelia breathed out, going to kiss him again.

"No, no, I want to be able to do it whenever, not just when we're alone, I want you back Mia." Spider confessed, Amelia's eyes widened, and she stepped back from him.