Its hard...no matter how many times you tell people or how many times you tell yourself it will, we see ourselves hurting and endure the pain. Best part, we think doing certain things is gonna help and that we can try to make it work. But here is the question....Is it going to make you happy at the end, is it going to hurt you in a way that you will go crazy? Nothing is ever easy in this life. Trying to find peace is the most brain killing adventure one can ever go on. Sleep, one's drug to escape reality...no matter how many times we take this drug, it only kills us at the end. I've been trying to sleep but can't , i think its sleep apnea or maybe dancing in someone's dream. Funny that, because i cant sleep these days, i mean who ever is dreaming of me....i mean like damn, I know i am too precious but let me sleep breh...but i do sleep, its eventually getting harder and harder with time and patience is really getting tested. Mostly tensed because sem exams are almost close and busting my A** to try and close the gap so i dont get the load on the next year. i will be very honest, I am not happy nor satisfied with anything at this point, trying to make myself happy is temporary, Like everything else in this world. But not some Things, Not the bond, not the connection and mutual respect. Pain and nights go by but not a single day goes without the thought of أمل or نِكَاح. Funny how a person can be a mirror...its like an invisible line that connects two souls and what is felt is felt on the other side of the line. I keep wondering why i love gaming so much, then i realize that the only game i ever adored was uncharted and it took me a day to understand why, The game starts when nathan drake explores the world for so many ancient treasures and wanted to document it with help of a journalist. Nate and elena ( the journalist) try to work together for one common goal but face problems and separations, in the second part, well nate hooks up with some other person who apparently is from sri lanka, at the end of that game, Nate still ended up with elena and tells he hates clowns. in the third part, nate somehow ended up asking the help of elena because he wanted to find the iram of the pillars and somehow it ends with Nate had give Elena a ring with the writing "greatness from small beginnings", it helped her in her line of work as she was a lone wolf. Finally in the fourth part. They get married and settle but still face issues as Nate's brother wanted to find a lost pirate treasure, when they did find it, Nate's brother slipped some of it in Elena's pocket and that somehow made Nate and Elena settle somewhere better. They have a daughter and a dog and epilogue is really heart warming. I do recommend watching youtube of this gameplay but when free time comes. Why i said it was...well...no way i thought i would spend my life with someone who i have never met but, I'd say there is greatness to where it ends. Theres no barrier i'd keep for my one. because its unhealthy for me if i do. Like the old ways, we work hard. If difficulty arises, The classical songs. Like charlie puth once said...."i am only one...call away ".
I recommend Writing...its very helpful and it helps you understand so many of your faults and mistakes in thinking and understanding. I mean, I wouldn't mind reading a diary of someone...just saying...i mean i don't know if i have a diary....or Do i?
Keep pushing, Never quit, and never lose hope....like i said, Greatness from small beginnings. you may suffer in the present, But the greatness lies in the future for we know not what it holds.
Only Allah Knows.
I am slight curious to whats with the new playlist, do tell me if anything.
