biology class / COMPLETED

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(the picture are the messages Alexis sent me and in this book, Alexis is Amber and Chris is drew:))

I wake up the next morning to a message from drew.

"hey uhm listen, I know you're sleeping but I really have to tell you something because I've learned it's not good to hurt your bf/gf by lying to them. I still have feelings for Amber. And so I'm breaking up with you because I love her and I know we've gotten along so well and we had fun times like the scary movie and the date last night, but I still really really like her. She came to me and told me she was single and that her and Daniel broke up, it was my only chance."

what the fuck have I ever done to him? I was such a good girlfriend. maybe we shouldn't have gotten together. I never wanted to ruin our friendship nor did I want it to end this way. of course she just had to fucking have him back.

"are you serious right now? that was a waste of fucking time" I respond

"I hope we can still be best friends!!" he quickly responds

I quickly message my other friend, telling her what happened, as she was the one suggesting drew ask me out. she tells her mom, aka my mom also, and her mom sends Amber a message. ("leave scarlet alone, she doesn't need your drama on top of everything else going on in her life")

I close out my messages and open facebook, not being on it for awhile. I search ambers name and click on her profile. I spot one of her posts from 4 am, "up all night talking to him😍😍😍" I roll my eyes and exit facebook as I get a message from her

"hey" she messages me

"what?!!!?" I respond

"I don't see why you're mad at me. I haven't done nothing to you, it's not my fault drew likes me!!"

"I thought you were told to leave me alone?!"

"I was but I want you to know its not my fault that we got back together✊"

"it is your fault. drew told me you just had to come crawling back to him, telling him you were single and that daniel broke up with you. please don't talk to me again skank ass, you've been back and forth with too many fucking guys, I don't wanna be friends with that✋" I message her back

"Okay." finally the bitch leaves me alone.

( a week later )

I lay down in bed, thinking about what happened only a few days ago. wow I was in deep, I never saw this coming. he swore up and down that he wouldn't go back to her.

I never had a guy look at me for five seconds, without being insecure. I saw the world a lot differently than others and it affected my decisions. it wasn't my fault, wasn't my intentions.

I don't know why I bother with love, for it never lasts. They tell us not to rush into things, then you flashed your green eyes at me. I should've slept with one eye open at night.

I lost my mind trying to love you. Life was worse, but never better.

If what we had was real, how are you fine? When I sat there, locked in my room with makeup and tears running down my face. The memories killed me. One minute it was us and the next it was you and her. My friends keep asking why I'm not around. it hurts to know you're happy with her. it hurts to know that you've moved on.

it's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long. it's like we never happened, was it just a lie? it's been awhile but I still think about it, my friends telling me I should move on and that it'll happen a million times before I find my knight and shining armor.