𝐒𝐀𝐃 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋 - 𝐉.𝐖.𝐖

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧

𝚗𝚊𝚛𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎 + 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖 !

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tw: mentions of sa (sexual assault), ed (eating disorder), sh (self-harm), abuse (physically, mentally, verbally) right towards the beginning of this chapter, but i'll put a tw before the paragraph!

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𝚌𝚕𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚎'𝚜 𝚙𝚘𝚟

"WAIT A MINUTE so you're saying you and javon basically kissed?!" rory asked with her jaw dropped. "yes ror, almost," i sighed. "OHEMGEE, CLEM DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS?" "no ror, i don't, please elaborate," i said, bringing my legs up to my chest.

"he wants you dumbass, can't you see!" rory exclaimed with a squeal. "yeah, you said that about every other guy from my past." rory stopped in her tracks. "clem, im sorry. i didn't know they were gonna hurt you like that at all," she walked up to me, cupping my face in her hands.

"you're my bestfriend clem, i don't know what i'd do without you. and im so sorry for letting all those guys treat you like that especially, well, you know who," my bestfriend said.

of course i knew who. kaden cooper. the boy who made me believe "love" wasn't even a thing. i mean, the stuff he put me through, physically and mentally.

tw starts here!

i don't think love is hitting your partner due to you being mad, or commenting on their weight all the time, forcing them to go days, even weeks, without eating, and sexually assaulting them.

he was my most recent boyfriend, and after i broke things off i never wanted to give my love to someone else. i was so scared. when i broke up with him, that's when he took advantage of me and then proceeded to beg for me to stay.

that's what he always did. he'd hit me and then cry to me about how sorry he was. and i believed it, every single time. i got so used to not eating that the sight of food would make me throw up, or if i ate, i instantly felt like throwing up.

rory is the only one i've ever talked about the whole situation with. she stuck by my side the whole time, and even though i relapse from time to time by either cutting myself or not eating, rory is there.

i've never been more thankful for a person. anytime i struggle with eating, rory is right there next to me. she's the reason i'm currently recovering and why i've been clean for 2 months.

tw ends!

rory saw that i was lost in thought thinking about everything and pulled me into a tight hug, i hugged her back before starting to cry softly. "shh, im right here clem, you're okay," she cooed while rubbing circles on my back.

we stayed like that for a couple of minutes before i started to calm down. "let's do something ror, i don't want to spend my day crying again," i said making rory softly nod. we both got up thinking of things we could do.

"how about we go to the park with the waltons?" rory asked and i nodded my head, agreeing. fuck. im nervous. i haven't talked to javon since yesterday after we, well, almost kissed. "i'll call jayla, you start my car," i stated, throwing ror my keys.