Nash Grier

Chapter 12

SO SO SO sorry for not updating in forever, I've had writers block and been super busy!

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Nash looks at me with a cold, distant stare. I came up to his place hoping I could change whatever went wrong between us. I came only to notice that he looks at me as if I am a unwanted guest, which I can sense that I am. Is someone else here? I hope not. Speaking of the devil... Jessica steps into the living area wearing nothing but an oversized shirt that belongs to Nash. It takes all I have to hold down the food in my stomach.
"Jessica, I was just showing LeAnna out, give us a minute?" He grabs her by the hips and kisses her neck.
I'm going to die. I can't handle this. Jessica smirks at me and dances around the corner. "Sorry you had to see that, you need to move on LeAnna. stop wasting your time chasing after me." He crosses his arm and jerks his head to the elevator. I get the picture, he wants me out. I let out a steady breath. "Why did you lead me on and make believe you cared for me?" My voice surprisingly came out stronger than I felt. "Frankly, it was because I was bored and you were a nice distraction from work, I only told you what you wanted to hear, I never meant anything and I never cared," he smiled, "I'm only being honest." he closes the space between us and grabs my chin. "For what it's worth, the sex was good." I jerk away but he forces himself upon me. "Nash get off of me!" I struggle to get out of his grip. I shake out of his hold long enough to notice it's not Nash on me anymore, Daniel takes his place and I'm fighting against something far to familiar.

I wake up screaming in bed and my dream fades away leaving behind a thrumming heart beat that echoes into the dark room around me. What the hell was that? I sit up and put my face in my hands and start to sob. I haven't had a good nights sleep in what seems like a long time. That dream felt way to real and I can't handle this lonely feeling anymore. I look at the clock and it's barely five in the morning. I might as well get out of bed. I climb out of my sheets feeling like a robot. keep yourself busy, don't think about him, don't think at all, just keep moving and don't stop. I walk into my closet and put on a pair of gym clothes and running shorts. Outside, a cloudy sky mocks my current mood, taunting the bad day I have ahead of me. Really? It's only a bad day because you allow it to be. I shake the thought away and start my run. I blast my music on and only focus on what's in front of me.
I run and push through pain in my legs and burn in my lungs.

I see my building getting close and change my run into a walk. I'm still breathless by the time I reach the building. I have to put my hands on my knees and catch my breathe as I wait for the elevator to open. Part of me hopes Nash will be on the other side of the doors. Yeah, keep dreaming.

I turn my key into the lock and walk in to my empty place. The silence of josh being gone is deafening. I feel empty. Even though I miss josh I can't help but wonder what Nash is doing. I wonder if he is thinking about what I'm doing. Stop. This has to stop. Today is the day I start over and become happy again. I can't let someone consume me. That wasn't supposed to happen anyways. I make an omelet and look out the window. The bleak weather doesn't help my mood. My days blend together and I have nothing to keep me busy. Maybe I should visit my mother. I frown. She is the last person I want to be with. I love her but she isn't who I need. I let out a sigh and continue to eat.
Someone knocks at the door. I practically choke and run to the door, my heart is beating frantically and I can't help but hope it's someone I want to see. Before I open and try to fix my sweat hair. don't get your hope up Bales. My hopes are shattered when I see the LAPD at the door. I don't try to hide my disappointment. "Expecting someone else?" A young man asks. He is fairly handsome but I see his ring on his finger when he sticks his hand out to shake mine. "I'm officer Julian and this is my partner Graves" he nods to the serious man beside him. "Sorry, no I wasn't expecting anyone. Hi, I'm LeAnna Bales. I'm sure you know that though, which brings me to the question as to why you are here?" I sound like a bitch but I don't care. I'm not in the mood for small talk. "May we come in? Im sorry to intrude but you might want to sit down for this." he looks at me with sorry eyes. what in the hell could happen that would bring the police to my place? I don't even think about the possibilities. "Sure, would you like some coffee or water?" I ask. "No thanks, we are in a hurry." Graves said. Well ok. I walk them to my living room and let them know they can make themselves comfortable. I sit down opposite of them. "So what brings you here?" I ask and look into their eyes. "Okay, do you know Daniel foster?" He asked. I stopped breathing. What the fuck. What happened. "Y-yes," I cleared my throat, "he was my um stepbrother, I have an abusive past with him. which is why I'm sure you are here." I can't think. This can't be good. "Miss Bales, he was found dead last night. We are not sure what, who, or how this happened. I am aware of your past and thought you should know. We called his uncle and they considered him dead long ago. He had no one. That isn't all though. He had a trail on you. He has been following your every move ever since he was released. I thought you deserved to know. lets just be thankful nothing serious happened to you." He looked at me with concerning eyes. I knew I was being followed. I can't believe he is dead. Of course I'm relieved, and if that makes me sick then so be it. "Now tell me, did you have any encounters with him? Or what you might think was him? Any information could be vital." I almost told them about the other night when Nash fought him off of me. But I can't get Nash involved with anymore of my life. "No sir, I'm just shocked to hear all of this. I had no idea." I look at both of the men and stand up giving them a cue to leave. "Okay, if you think of anything call me" he hands me a card. Graves spoke up, "He was found strangled. We need to know who wanted him dead."