Nash Grier

Chapter 15

Nash is playing with my hair while I lay on his chest. I close my eyes and take in the feeling of his hands. This date is more than I could have asked for, especially for it to happen so aspontaneously. All the worry from the past few weeks has vanished and has been replaced with complete happiness. A part of me is still hurt and hesitant about starting over but I'll get over it. I think I'm mostly hurt because I've lost my best friend. Josh won't return any calls. I sigh. "hey, what's wrong?" Nash asks and I feel his fingers trace my lip. I open my eyes and See Nash staring at me as if I'll disappear. God, why is he so beautiful? he literally takes my breath away. I shake away the thought of Josh. I don't want to ruin any good moments I have with Nash, I've only had a few and I want there to be more than just drama in this relationship. I bite the finger that is playing with my bottom lip and smile. He laughs at me and smiles back. "nothing, I'm just glad I can make you smile." I say and wrap my arm around his waist while we lay down on the pallet he made outside. I feel Nash's gaze on me.
"You know, you are the only thing that's gotten me through these last couple of weeks. It may have not seemed like it but you were on my mind constantly. I imagined what you would be doing and made myself go crazy wondering if you were spending your time with someone else. I would catch my self daydreaming about you. I had to stop myself many times from sneaking into your apartment, I failed once, but it was worth it. It made me crazy knowing you were sleeping in the same building but not by my side." he laughs and gives me a quick kiss. "I even tipped the man in the front to tell me how you looked and if you were with anyone whenever you left or entered the building. I am crazy. And just knowing that there was a slight possibility that you might be thinking of me, made me smile. You make me happy and I want to make you happy LeAnna, I'm determined to do just that." Nash grabbed my hand that was laying on his chest and intertwined our fingers. He has a way with words. "Nash... I....er...you thought of me?" He laughs at me.
"I thought of you every moment. Whether it was good or bad you were on my mind."
"I had a dream that you left me for Jessica. I woke up freaking out. It felt so real. I kept convincing myself that I wasn't any good for you and I wanted to move on but I couldn't." I felt him tense up.
"Better be damn glad you didn't. Im to selfish to let you move on, I would like to see another man try and put his hands on you." I laugh and remember josh kissing me. I have to tell him. I would want to know if he kissed someone. "Nash I have to tell you something, just so you are aware. Please don't overreact." all of a sudden the atmosphere around us is tense. "so... umm... Josh kissed me, I kissed him back but I was emotional and wasn't thinking clearly. We used to have a past, years and years ago, and he decided to tell me that he still felt something for me. Before you get mad, I never told you because it was irrelevant and I will never be with him like that again, he is like a brother to me." I had to catch my breath.

It's been silent for the past ten minutes. Nash is just looking into the sky. I can't tell if he is mad or just didn't understand what I said. I start to get up but he stops me. I feel his chest rise and fall a few times before he starts to speak. "okay." he holds me tighter than before. what the? I was expecting him to be furious. "okay?" I look at him. his eyes are locked with mine, he looks hurt. shit.
"I hurt you, broke you. I understand how you must have felt. you were confused and he took advantage of that. I want to punch him in the face for using you, he knew you were already upset and not thinking clearly. it isn't your fault. I don't want him being your roommate anymore, I can't keep him from being your roommate but I don't trust him and I do not like it. But If you say there isn't any feelings for him romantically than I believe you." He said and kissed each knuckle.
"He left. he moved back to Michigan because I wouldn't give him a chance. I had no one. I have you again now but he was and is my best friend Nash." I close my eyes to avoid getting all worked up over it.
"What a dick."
I laugh at his response. it was something I wouldn't expect to hear from him. he laughed with me. "It's getting late, we should go to bed." Nash held out his hand and helped me up. I helped him clean up the blankets and walked with him to take the glasses to the kitchen to get washed.

"Just what a woman is supposed to do." Nash winks and sits down at the bar and watches me wash the glasses. I roll my eyes and splash water at him. He grinned and his eyes lit up, he looked more like his age rather than the person the world expects him to be. I take a side note to realize how lucky I am that I get to see him like this, for who he really is. He walks over to me with a smirk on his face. "stop Nash!" I run to the other end of the bar. "you can't run from me, you won't get far." he mimics every move I try to make. "That's only if you catch me" I wink. "oh baby, that's exactly what I plan on doing." he takes a leap and starts to chase after me. I scream and run but I almost slip on some water and have to catch my balance. Nash grabbed my waist and turned me around to face him. he picks me up and sits me on the counter. "What Did you say about catching you?" he leans in to kiss me and I wrap my legs around his waist. "lets go to bed," he licks his lips. I hop off of him and walk away. "Where are you going?" He follows me to the elevator and stops smiling when I press the button.
"I'm taking it slow. delayed gratification."
Nash smiled and shook his head as the doors closed.