Diana's Pov
"you know life is soo unfair" I told her "well it is and we have to bare with what comes in our way as much as we envy others we should know that there life isn't always perfect and neither is ours honey, and remember it is okay to feel like you want to be someone else but know that they also have imperfections and flaws and not everyone is perfect and just because someone has gotten worse than us does not mean that our feelings does not matter and we shouldn't feel sad"
It was sports period and the football practice was going on. I, personally, prefer to sit in library because I can't play any sports that good if someone forced me to play I'll probably go in badminton anyway I was walking in the hallway while holding a book in my one hand which I was reading and the other was occupied with coffee I was so focused into that book that I bumped into someone and spilled coffee on that person "oh my god can't you focus on where you are going instead on that book. Fuck, now my jersey is all ruined because of you" I looked up to see angry Alex, god can this day be more bad "sorry it was an accident" I apologized hoping he'll forgive "that sorry of yours won't fix my jersey would it?" He spat harshly "no it won't but if I washed it, it will right?" I said "I don't need your help my practice has already ruined my day and now your coffee hasn't helped it making better either and you know what just go before I get more angry" he said coldly while looking into my eyes "I am sorry" and with that I left.
God, the entire day I needed to sit beside an angry Alex who won't stop glaring at me. Time went by and school finally got over and I, decided to go to library.
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I was searching for 'Archer's voice' when I saw it on the top shelf of last column I tried reaching for it but being short wasn't helping and suddenly, I felt a presence behind me I turned around to see that person holding the book and grinning at me "Louis!! What are you doing here?!?" I exclaimed and hugged him, Louis is my childhood best friend we both grew up together and are family friends. "Well as you can see I flew from London to here!!" He said excitedly, Louis moved to London a few years ago because of dad's business and I missed him soo much.
"Why didn't you tell me that you were coming and I bet Cassie already knew this" I asked him narrowing my eyes "well yeah she does" he said breaking the hug and awkwardly scratching his head, Cassie is also my best friend she is also my neighbor and her brother is in my school.
Me, Louis and Cassie are best friends Louis met Cassie through me and since then we became a trio. "Oh I am betrayed" I said putting my hand on my chest pretending that my heart hurts "okay drama queen if I had told you it wouldn't be surprise would it" he said while jokingly rolling his eyes "well you are right I guess" I said "well now if you are done let's go to Starbucks Cassie must be waiting for us!!" He spoke as he grabbed my hand "well but we need to go to receptionist and tell her that I am renting this book" I held his hand and took him to reception.
Little did we know someone was watching us the entire time.
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We went to Starbucks and before letting anyone speak I spoke "Cassiopeia Taylor I am very angry with you! You didn't answer my calls and nor responded or saw my text and the whole time you knew he was coming and didn't care to inform me!" "Oh honey I can explain" she spoke "I demand your explanation then" I spoke acting like I am mad at her "well long story short me and my brother Aaron got into fight he broke my phone, I broke his laptop. Mom found out and told us we aren't getting new ones until dad come. Dad came yesterday morning and we got new devices at last night" she explained to me.
"Well you are forgiven since Louis has came he'll buy us treat" I said clapping my hands excitedly "yeah yeah that's the reason I am here" he said sarcastically. And time passed, Louis told us about his London experience, Cassie told us what she did without her phone, I told them about me being partnered with Alex, and we filled in the gossip to Louis about whatever has happened when he was gone.
I looked at my clock and realized that it was 7 pm "shit" I cursed under my breath "I need to go guys it's late" I told them while picking up my stuff "okay bye" they hugged me and I bid my goodbye and took a cab and went straight to home.
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Opening the door I was greeted by mother sitting elegantly on the couch with a glass of wine in her hand "where were you" she asked me with cold voice that sent shivers to my spine "I first went to library and then to Starbucks since Louis came" I answered "no text?" She asked "I didn't realised the time" "next time text us before going anywhere. I am leaving you this time won't tolerate this behavior again" she spoke sternly "yes" I replied.
I went towards my bedroom and once I got there I decided to get freshed first. I was laying on my bed going through phone, suddenly I got a text from Alex, the text says "when are we starting our project?" And I replied with "I think we should talk about it in school since it's 8 pm and I don't think any of us has the capacity to do project now" and this was his reply "okay" like okay? I stared at my screen blankly for entire two minutes before deciding to find my copy of little women. As I was looking through it I found something I never thought of opening again… my journal, something that I kept hidden from everyone not that anyone would be interested in reading. This was the journal or diary that I made when I was 10 yrs old when we used to live in my old house. I decided to look through it even though my heart was telling me not to.
14 Jan 2008
Dear diary
Today when I came home from school I heard shouting from basement a man was praying someone not to beat them just like I pray my father. Also when we were having dinner I accidentaly spilled the water and father shouted at me for that even though I apologized for it. I also came late today because I wanted to go to library and father shouted at me for that too and told me I am pathetic for crying. I felt so sad but mom promised me to buy me ice cream so I am happy.
I closed the diary and looked for a number that I haven't dialed in ages
Lookin at the contact 'mom' I clicked the call button before putting it on my ear I swallowed the lump in my throat. Soon someone picked up and said "hello Anna" I spoke while trying my best not to cry "hello mom how are you doing?" "I am doing great honey, how are you? Do you need anything, my love? Are you okay? Do they behave good with you?" She spoke "I am doing great mom everything is fine I just…. I miss you and wish I was with you" I answered "you know you can come to me once you are eighteen because I don't think your father will allow you to meet me now" she said "I know…… I just wanted to see you, you know anyways how is Theodore doing?" I asked her, Theodore is her husband."he is doing great love, he wanted to meet you and I told him that you'll meet soon only 3 more years" she spoke "3 years seems soo long mum" i answered her "I know honey, but trust me they'll get over soon" she spoke "you know life is soo unfair" I told her "well it is and we have to bare with what comes in our way as much as we envy others we should know that their life isn't always perfect and neither is our's honey, and remember it is okay to feel like you want to be someone else but know that they also have imperfections and flaws and not everyone is perfect and just because someone has gotten worse than us does not mean that our feelings are irrelevant and we shouldn't feel sad" she spoke and I listened to her, she knew what I was going through even tho I didn't told her, I am like and open book to her and I know she knows that I am lying when I told her everything is fine, she knows what to say when I am feeling down, she knows how to comfort me even with words. "you are right mom" I said and realised something was beeping and I saw that my battery is 5 percent "mom I'll speak to you later my phone is about to die tell theo I love him and he better treat you right or I'll call some people to make sure he won't be able to walk and I love you" I told her jokingly "I'll tell him and don't worry he is treating me right and I love you too honey bye I'll talk to you soon" she said and hung up I threw my phone on bed and just thought about what she told me I closed my eyes and I soon I fell asleep with tears on my face.
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The Love We Could Never Have
Romance*Waring: use of abusive language,mentions of abuse and trauma, violence* Diana Amber "I'm not easy to handle; I'm too much, I love too much, I cry too much, I get hurt too much, I care too much, that's my problem Alex; I'm too much but never enough...
