Savant.

Savant, Chapter 2

These days are meant to enjoy. Especially for someone like myself. I'm meant to live. To breath.. to let go and move on.. Only sometimes..

It's hard.

Sometimes it's so hard, that I no longer want to exist.

But I do.

I found my self out tonight. I hadn't spoken to Melody for a few hours.. She's probably still pissed with me. I always mess things up. I don't know why she's stayed.

"Can i get another shot please?" I ask the bartender as i look around this very loud and colorful bar. I don't know how i even ended up here.. But.. Here I am. "Thanks." I say as my drink was handed over. I started off light first.. But fuck it. I quickly through my head back, taking my shot like the champion i am. The fucking warrior I knew I always was. The warrior HE never wanted me to be. I don't know why i always think about him.. I've just been through so much shit that it's simply hard to forget that he was a person.. That he was still probably alive, looking for me. Even though the thought scares me.. Liam has told me to always remember that it's over, he'll never see me again.

"When the fuck did I ever start listening to what Liam had to say?" I grunt and mutter softly to myself. My mind was soon clouded when the music turned up, and more people grew around the bar. I could hear their conversations.. their voices.. Trepidation filled me, because I was never good with people. 

Eventually, I scurried to the bathroom which surprisingly wasn't full of others. My eyes raised to the mirror in front of me as I neared the sinks within this dirty bathroom. The sink, stained and encrusted with remnants of past use, drips a slow, rhythmic beat into the murky water pooled at its base. Fucking gross. I look down at my foot which was now wet due to the water I was standing in, and I held back a gag. But I was soon interrupted by the sound of the door opening quickly, and then shutting fast after, causing my head to turn and look to the direction immediately.

"What the fuck are you doing in here?" The young girl asked, she looked slightly frightened but I could tell she was not afraid.. Because that slightly frightened look soon disappeared. She looked more angry now.

"I should be asking you that.. This is the men's bathroom.." I muffled, but she shook her head. What..?

"This is the woman's restroom, creep." She said, glaring at me. I took that as an insult.. Me.. a creep? fucking hell, I just wasn't paying attention.

For some reason, i bit down on my tongue, holding back from saying much more of anything. 

"Totally.. you're the suspicious one here." Were all I could manage.. but she just stood there.. Staring at me.

I was fucking nervous. This girl was beautiful.. I hadn't ever seen someone this pretty.. Her brown curly hair is artfully tousled, falling in wild waves around her shoulders, framing a face that exudes a sense of mystery. Her eyes, a deep, smoky brown, hold a hint of danger, a glimpse into a soul that has seen its share of shadows. She wears an outfit that is both elegant and daring, a black dress that hugs her curves in all the right places, hinting at a hidden strength beneath her delicate exterior. To match were low heels which didn't look like the kinds you had to be careful in. Despite her undeniable beauty, there is a coolness to her demeanor, a distance that suggests she is not one to be easily swayed by charm or flattery. She moves with a confidence that borders on arrogance, a silent challenge to those around her to try and unravel the secrets she keeps so closely guarded. A silent challenge to me.. as she moves closer toward me.. And I find my self in a daze.. Secretly admiring what, and whoever this girl was.

"Who are you.. and are you after me..?" She suddenly asks.. standing before me.. Here, I could see her beautiful face more closer.. She was so perfectly made that it ignited something within me.. And when I tried to speak.. I couldn't. Why was it so suddenly hard to say something. "They sent you didn't they..?" She muffled once again.. but my eyes soon widened after a moment more, and I quickly shook my head, Taking a few steps back for further space between us quickly.