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"But you never cut yourself right?"
I look at my phone,
and my mind goes blank,
how can someone ask that,
when they don't even know the story?
But that's not even the worst part,
I'm clean right now,
but they're gonna be there forever,
i'm always gonna be "just" sober.
I will never not have touched a blade,
i'll never have normal arms,
I'll never be able to feel comfortable,
I'll always be the girl that cut herself.
My children are gonna ask me,
what happened to my arms,
and i'm just gonna have to lie them,
until they stop believing me.
My children are going to know someday,
but will I even have children?
Who wants someone,
that has a scarred body?
It's always going to be,
I'm ... months sober,
it will always be that way,
i can't take back what i did.
No one will ever look at me normal,
once they know my story,
and I'm gonna have to relive,
everything when they ask me.
I'm never gonna be truly fine,
i'm always going to be the weird girl,
zu wish i could just go back in time,
and take all the blades away from myself.
- 05.04.24
A/N
Hey guys,
this poem is definitely NOT saying that being sober isn't smt to be proud of. Being sober is amazing and it is literally perfect and i'm so proud of everyone that's clean
lots of love
Lizzy
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