°Insecurities°

Vent

No chapter today, im sorry.

if any of you know me irl, yes this is directed at you. dont message me about it because im just expressing how you make me feel and i genuinely wont survive for another situation like the last time i expressed my emotions.

istfg hate when you ask people something and no one takes it seriously and go off talking about something else that wasn't even a topic of discussion, yet when THEY ask a question you answer as soon as you can, but they cba to do the same for you. So the next time someone says: 'Treat people how you want to be treated' I am going to lose my shit because that doesn't work, it just makes people take advantage of you and not give two shits about you until its necessary to them. Like half the people i know dont want to talk to me unless its necessary to them and im fucking on the edge rn bc its ridiculous because im always there for them, and when im not im busy, and when i need them, it doesnt fucking matter because its not abt them. The amount of times someones asked, 'how you doing?' and i say 'okay, you?' and they go 'terrible' is literally so fucking much because i feel like they only see me as someone to vent to. Idm comforting them, but when its the only reason they ever want to 1 on 1 talk to me, it gets really tiring so im just ignoring them when they say shit like that now, but it makes me feel like shit, like im the bad person and it fucking annoys me to hell just how 'loyal' i am to people who dgaf unless its abt them, i mean i expressed discomfort once and i was made out to be the bad person like wth? i expressed discomfort, so the person making me uncomfortable goes ahead and acts like IM the problem. it fucking hurts and it feels like they dont care abt me unless it benefits them.