Don't wanna be his

Chapter 10. The Permission

Jhanvi

I woke up early today, but he still wasn't in bed, he does like to wake up early, but he also works. The yesterday thing isn't settling to me, I may be overthinking it, but I still think he ignored me cause I did something, maybe it was cause of the coffee I made. I made it in a hurry when I heard Aryan yell at the maid, I felt bad for the maid so I quickly grabbed the ingredients not checking what they were, I just thought I made the coffee, and when I checked what I put in, he yelled, I thought he'll yell at me but he told me he'll drink the coffee, it did make me shocked at first but then I figured it out the caffeine got in his head, I messed up yesterday.

"Kya soch rahi hai" Shaking my arm she asked.

"Kal khi baat dimag mein ghum rahi hai" I reply with a lack of energy.

"Zyada mat soch, kal bhi tune kuch nahi kaya, jije khi wait karti rahi khi kab ayenge or kab tu khayegi, or teri waja se mein bhi bhuki rahi" she said making me laugh a bit. I waited so I could eat with him and make him fresh food, but it took another turn, and meanwhile she didn't eat saying it would make her feel bad if she'd eat when I didn't, she didn't force me to eat but just waited till they came back, I did tell her to eat, but she said she wouldn't until I did, so we ended up not eating until they fed us.

"Ab mein kya karti, pura din to vo bahar rahe, or mujhe feeling arhi thi khi uno ne kuch nahi kaya, or uski waja se mera bhi maan nahi huya khane kha" I reply. He actually didn't eat, I thought I was just having it as a random feeling but it came out true. If I had eaten I would've felt bad that I ate when he didn't, luckily I didn't.

"Or aj bhi dekh subhe subhe hi kahi chale gaye, mujhe to pata bhi nahi hai khi uno ne breakfast kiya hai khi nahi" I added.

"Kham phe gaye honge" she replied.

"Ese kese kham pe gaye honge, kal to vo late gaye te, or abhi to bas 11 baj rahe hai" I reply placing the coffee cups in the tray. I made the coffee right this time, but I wonder when they'll come back, I don't think they went to work this early, I'm just assuming it, and even if they did, I hope he has eaten breakfast. I know how much energy it takes to work, I used to deal with some stupid kids when I used to teach them, they used to take all of my energy and at the end of the teaching I'd be lying on the bed and sleeping for a few hours, and here he works more than I used to, he must be a lot more tired than I used to be at the end of the day, I wonder what I can do to not make him feel tired, I can cook some high protein food, I'll keep that idea in mind.

"Tu or teri tension" she laughed.

"Or should I say, tu or tera pyaar" she stated confidently, while raising her eyebrows playfully, making me stare at her. I'm only doing what a wife should do for her husband, it's not love. I wonder if there'll ever be love between us, usually arranged marriages like these end up failing, and I've always dreamed of having a proper and cute love life, I only kept dreaming, I didn't even try to get a boyfriend and now I've ended up here with a whole husband, don't get me wrong, he's nice and sweet but it's only been a few days, I've seen in videos they usually act sweet and nice at the beginning then a few months later they show their true colors, which I'm scared of. I don't want him to be an abuser, I don't know why I'm only thinking about him being abusive, he can be way worse than that, but I don't think he will, I hope he won't, but besides that I know for sure my life won't have the love I have dreamt of. I won't have a proper love life, sadly.

"Bas kar, mein to generally hi soch rahi thi, tu to ek baat khi sau baate bana deti hai" I respond turning my head to the door.