Don't wanna be his

Chapter 8. The jealousy

Sahil

"Ah fuck.." I say looking at the door, my hand still holding the gun. I can feel her warmth and scent on me. Fuck, I couldn't resist her, she was so damn close to me that I couldn't, she smelled so good, I didn't even think before doing all that, my body moved on it's on. When I saw her my mind went wrong and started thinking about stuff that I shouldn't be thinking in the first place, Fuck this is getting more fucked up than I thought, what would she be thinking now, I made myself seem no less than a pervert, fuck but she didn't had to leave before I could finish. No, she did the right thing, I don't know myself what would've happened if she didn't run away. I kept looking at the door. Tossing the gun on the table I grabbed the chair sitting down, I tried taking a breath, my nostrils are filled with her scent, she's driving me crazy when she shouldn't be, her body felt so soft, and her scent is so sweet it did something to me. The way she was so close to me, the way I had her in my arm, I know it was wrong but damn if I want to feel it again. It might be wrong but it won't be at the same time.

The door opened, Aryan came into the room. I looked at him from up and down, he's smiling like an idiot, he ended up doing something to the girl, didn't he? We both aren't able to control ourselves. I don't know what he did but I was almost about to leave another love bite on the other side of her neck, only if she didn't run away, and only if her dress hadn't gotten in my way, well she did look good in the dress, I didn't think she would wear it at first, but she did, I woke up early to go out and chose the dress myself. I also made plans for what to do today with her, first I'll take her to go shopping for the things she needs, then if she wants we can hang out outside, and at night we could go to a restaurant and eat, I don't want her to tire herself over cooking.

"Tune bhi kuch kiya na bhabhi khe sath" he said sitting in front of me, he knows. He did something with the girl too, if we both keep this up the plan will end up failing, I'm saying to control my feelings but now I can't? I'd have to put these feelings aside before anything else happens, I think she has done something to me, I'm saying this from yesterday, I don't know what's happening to me, her scent, her voice, her eyes, fuck, everything about her is doing something to me, and I can't resist it.

"Haan, pata nahi sab kuch apne app hi hogeya" I said covering my face with my hands, only if I could control my mind around her, my mind, no that's not the problem here, the problem is my mind couldn't control me when she got close, I wanted to continue, I couldn't control myself, whatever happened a few minutes ago, I won't let it happen again, I'll stay away from her and go as planned, I'm thinking this but will I really be able to, even if I can't I'll have to try and control. I may stay away from her but this dork, I shouldn't be worried about him, he knows better than me not to fuck up this plan, he knows that if anything goes wrong our one and only chance of getting the pin would go down the drain. I need a cigarette to calm down my mind.

"I don't think this is going well" he said making me sigh. He's thinking the same as me, the only thing that's surprising me is that she let me do that to her, and the way she let out those soft moans, if it made me want to eat that neck of hers up. I was biting, sucking, touching, I took a breath, I'll forget about whatever I did to her, that's the best to do for now.

"Cigarette hai tere pass?" he took out the packet handing it over to me, putting my hair back from my face I took a cigar, he lit it up. I rested my head against the chair while looking up at the ceiling, why is this not going as I planned, why the fuck does everything have to go completely opposite on the second fucking day, I don't want to torture her and ask her that way, I want to be sweet and nice to her but for what, and for how many weeks can I hold this "act" up, and for how much can I trust myself around her, till when can I go without pushing these dumbass feelings away and be the way I am, till when. It won't be long before I lose my patience and ask her the rough way, calm down, you didn't marry and did all this to torture her, have some patience.