Among the Fallen|Lucifer x Reader

~Chapter 16•Credit Coke Pt.2~

      •1st person•
   Angel sat me on the couch and walked away. I could hear his conversation with Val, though I'm guessing he thought I couldn't.
  "Val she went off on Lucifer. I don't know what to do."
"Her boyfriend is upstairs. He wasn't hurt as bad as her side man thought."
"Vox might be more mad at her than Lucifer is! Not to mention she's higher than I've ever seen her. She drank over 200 maybe 300 dollars worth of alcohol."
"Calm down Angel Dust. She'll live, she's resilient. I'm sure Vox will be happy to hear about their falling out, might help calm him down."
"I don't want her hurt. She's my friend, and my responsibility."
"Says who, hm?" Val must be trying to play mind games. I wonder what time it is. Or what day.
"The fuck is going on down here? Y/N!" Velvet ran to me and embraced me in a hug. I was in a haze. "Oh fuck," she looked up to Val and angel behind me, "how high is she?" Her question was responded to by Val's deep chuckle.
"Take her to her novio." Val's footsteps were followed by angel's. Velvet looked down at me.
"Love you girlfriend but you're not my problem tonight. Come on." She helped me up and rested my weight on her. I stumbled along, trying to keep up with her. She pushed me lightly into Vox's room. He was sitting on the couch so I walked over and collapsed on it.
  "You still decided to show your face after you had your boy toy try to kill me?"
  "He's not- I didn't- that ain't." I look at the ceiling and begin to ball. Vox was surprised and tried to stop me.
  "Hey, hey it's okay star! I didn't mean that!" He came up to me and put his hands on my shoulders. He shook me a bit. "Come on please stop crying."
"It's not you." I sniffled. "It's Lucifer. We aren't even dating and we had this huge fight and-" after that my words were inaudible. I kept crying. Vox hugged me and ran his hand through my hair.
After that the rest of the drugs got to me. My mind didn't deem it important to remember anything other than Lucifer's and my fight. I woke up in bed with Vox, us both half naked.
I got up and dressed, having the worst headache in my life. Looking at my phone I had several missed calls from Lucifer, yet no texts or voicemails. I walked down to the lounge floor.
"Hey sweet tits. You look like a mess." Angel was sitting on a couch with a few drinks in front of him.
"Morning PCP, you drinking already?"
"You know it." He raised a glass in the air towards me. I took it and chugged it.
"You heard from Charlie?"
"No, should I have?" He raised an eyebrow as I sat by him on the couch.
"No I'm just worried and all. I don't wanna go back to the hotel if Lucifer is there."
  "Well you can't avoid him forever." Velvet took a seat across from us, coffee in hand.
  "I can try my damn hardest to." I hear my phone ring, another call.
  "Toots why don't you answer that?" Angel placed a hand on my shoulder.
  "Because if he has anything to say he can say it to my face." I shut off my phone.
  "That's hard to do if you're avoiding him." Velvet felt the need to chime in.
  "Okay forget this. I'm getting dressed, and I'm going back to that hotel to give him a piece of my mind." I stood from the couch and marched back up to Vox's floor. He was still asleep before I got into the shower but was up by the time I was out.
  "What are you all pissed about, Star?" He had come up behind me as I was looking through my closet. Yes he gave me my own closet in his room.
  "Lucifer. He keeps calling me so I'm going back to that shitty hotel and giving him a piece of my mind." I was spun around as Vox placed a hand on my shoulder.
  "No you're not star."
  "I am. I telling him how shitty of a man he is and how I'm not staying at that hotel ever again." I was about to cry. Vox stared at me a few seconds before letting me go.
  "Do as you wish. You model for Velvet today." Vox disappeared into the bathroom. I got dressed and went back down to the lounge floor.
  "PCP! Let's go!" I looked towards angel dust.
  "Do I got to? I ain't gonna have to break up a fight, right?"
  "We'll see."
      •hotel•
   Walking in I come to find the usual morning scene. Charlie and Vaggie setting some activity up. Husk behind the bar serving Cherry a drink. Nifty and Alastor talking at the top of the stairs. Yada yada. Lucifer was at the bar and had drinks in front of him. When he looked over at me he straightened his posture and cleared his throat as to speak.
  "Not a word." I walked over to him. My words were cold and stern. "My points of last night still stand so you can loose my number. I'm done with this hotel and the game that you seem to be playing. I'm going back to life how it was before I even knew you existed."
  "So people can use you and see you as an object? You're throwing away your friends, your family."
  "You are none of that to me."
  "Oh really?" Lucifer chuckled. "Then go." He turned his face away.
"I am."
"Uh what happened, Y/N?" Charlie slowly walked up.
"Nothing. Nifty can clean my room and prepare it for the next asshole guest." I walk upstairs and pack what little belongings I brought here. I leave things I don't need or have at Vox's place. It all fit in a backpack. I was packing up the last few things when the door opened.
"I'm not married." Lucifer grabbed my arm and spun me around. "I haven't been in a while. I just still wanted to believe it still. And I wanted to deny-" he cut himself off and let go of my arm.
"Deny what!? What do you have to hide?!" I took a step closer until I was sure he felt my breath on his face.
"Deny my feelings for you." He stood straight and his eyes avoided mine.
"Well too damn bad. There's nothing between us. Never was, never will be."
   Why am I saying that?
      It's not true.
         I love him.
            Fuck.
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Willows notes: ugh the angst. I'm excited to see what I write next 🤭❤️ also HAPPY PRIDE