*plays video/music*
I'M TIRED...of this shit. Someone, please make it stop.. though NO ONE CAN MAKE THIS STOP. I'd sing this for you, my own voice, not Ariana's IF ONLY I CAN. My voice trembles, shakes, cries...
"Why do you always message me?"
What you asked me, HURTS LIKE HELL DAMN YOU. You imply that I bother you, that I disturb you, that after all this time, I failed to be someone significant to you.. :'( I guess this is my punishment huh... I'm too clingy.. too emotional.. expects too much.,.,
I didn't complain for so long that you talk to me like I'm a toddler. THAT YOU ONLY SEND LESS THAN THREE WORDS AS REPLIES. Everyday, I get sick of it. But I can't help to smile when you finally reply, even if it's just a two letter word...
I was liar. I should've fought what I felt. Cause in the end, I KNOW VERY WELL I'LL GET HURT. Funny thing, I'm stupid. You made me think you'll be there and never leave. I don't deserve it.. I know.. BUT GIVE ME A MINUTE, I'll try to make it worth it. But I feel useless. Worthless. A nobody when I talk to you. I DON'T CARE IF YOU GOT HER IN YOUR HEART... All I really care is you wake up in my arms. I just don't want to lose you. Stay with me.. even if its only your eyes on me. You give her your heart, your everything.. spare me a part of you. A close friend... :'(
But for the mean time, I HAVE TO ENDURE BEING AWAY from you. I don't want to chase.. No, if I can't stand a day not messaging you before, this time IT IS FOR REAL FUCKS!
*whispers* I hope you do something...
Cause I don't want to be without you.
