Trigger warning:
Suicide
Cursing
Other stuff you'd expect from Class of '09 🥰🥰🥰
[Oregon]
Make no mistake
I'm a sociopath
God that sounded evil
Let's rewind a bit
I grew up all over Coastal America
House, after house, after restraining order
Everything just kinda blends in
If the divorce rate is 50/50 my mom landed on tails like eight times
So by the time I was 14, right?
I moved from seven different houses and attended six different school districts
After a while you don't see a point in making friends
The Vitamin C graduation song? Yeah can't relate
But then one year all of that almost changed?
For the first time ever I found myself in a school for two consecutive years, going on three
And then I like... started turning pretty a month into high school
"Guys hitting on you" social leverage was really awesome
The popular girls would talk to me all the time
And they were just STUPID
Like they had alway been pretty
Never left out, never alone
And when I think about it... all the thinking I've ever done was when I was alone
I was nice about it and thought I'd always be nice about it
Finally in one place to build a steady reputation
And then life said FUCK THAT
My peice of shit gamer brother got us evicted for pirating breakbeat mixtapes
It's like not even good music!
Anyway so mom was crying packing up the moving boxes and that's when she told me we're moving out of state!
And I JUST got settled!
I said "FUCK YOU I'm living with Dad"
He's just a neighbors down
I put the boxes down
Go over
Knock on the door and-
BOOM
A gunshot!
My second Christmas killed himself!
I walked in..
Floor looked like a whole ass video game
Just blood everywhere
And get this, his suicide note was stuck to the fridge with a Cookie Monster Magnet
All he wrote on it,
"Oregon's fault"
I'm Oregon by the way, hi
WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO HIM!?
Maybe I missed the softball office game?
Men are so into this revenge suicide thing
But whatever
It doesn't matter
Nothing matters...
I'm moving...
AGAIN
City, county, state;
All the same fate
But I've always said that while leaving
This time...
It's on arrival
